A DOODLE'S LIFE

Ever wonder what it's like to be a doodle? What it's like to live in a papery world where each of your body parts is created with the tip of a pencil, or a pen, or a marker?

Well, one thing for sure; in a doodle's life, anything is possible!

If you're a doodle, you can:

Munch a giant cookie (without having to worry about getting fat)

Explore the universe (or your stargazing book, to be precise) 

Party hard with these cute little dolls from your pen pals,

Be the queen of the world,

Climb your favorite crystal,

Be your favorite hero's sidekick,

Share your evil plan with your giant human twin sister,

And roast your marshmallow on your Christmas light! 

However, being a doodle isn't always easy...

Taking a bath is too risky,

Your dog is no longer your best friend,

You may get stuck in a jar,

And you can't draw anymore because all available markers are too big for you :(

Oh well, happy holiday, everyone! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :)

PARAGRAF PENUH TANYA

Jadi, bila dia jauh lebih tua dariku dan kita tidak memiliki hubungan darah sama sekali, aku tidak bisa bersahabat dengannya? Apakah aneh bila aku bersahabat dengan yang jauh lebih muda, atau yang jauh lebih tua, ketimbang dengan mereka yang seumuran denganku? Jadi aku harus menanggung dosa apabila aku memiliki teman yang berbeda status sosialnya, berbeda umurnya, berbeda latar belakangnya, dan berbeda pula kepercayaannya? Jadi aku akan berdosa bila aku berteman dengan  seorang perokok, pemabok, penghisap ganja, PSK? Bukankah adanya kejahatan di dunia ini merupakan tanggung jawab kita semua sebagai manusia yang satu? Bukankah Tuhan ingin kita menjadi teman bagi siapa saja, mencintai siapa saja tanpa pamrih, memeluk siapa saja dengan kasih tanpa peduli betapa dekilnya orang yang akan kita peluk atau berapa banyak kejahatan yang telah ia perbuat? Bukankah semua manusia sama derajatnya, atau setara, di mata Pencipta dan di mata hukum yang berlaku di alam semesta ini? Siapakah kita sehingga kita berhak menciptakan hukum kita sendiri di dunia yang sesungguhnya bukan milik kita? Atau apa aku yang salah? Apa aku yang menyimpang hukum dan moral, dan berdosa karena telah menciptakan konsepku sendiri? Apakah berpendapat dan bertanya akan kebenaran yang sesungguhnya merupakan tindakan yang arogan? Siapakah yang berhak menentukan mana yang benar dan yang salah, menyebarkan ajarannya, dan kemudian menurunkannya kepada generasi-generasi berikut, yakni mereka yang meneruskan kelangsungan hidup di alam semesta? Bisakah aku bertanya kepadaNya langsung dan memintaNya untuk memberikanku tanda? Apa aku harus bungkam dalam kesabaran, menanti jawaban hingga akhir hayat, mendekap liang kubur dengan rasa penasaran yang tergolek pasrah di dalam gundukan tanah? 

Ah, sudah malam. Barangkali aku akan melanjutkan paragraf ini dalam tidurku, dalam mimpiku. 

RETURNING HOME TO NATURE

Aside from all the dreams I want to pursue, I think I have one special dream that I have forgotten for long. Looking at the days where technology takes over our modern world, along with other factors, I think this dream is quite impossible to achieve. But as crazy as it sounds, I believe there will be a way to make it come true, someday.

To live life dependently with nature, going with its vibrations and tunes, has been something I always wanted to do. In fact, there are people who are still doing this despite the world's evolution and movement. They feed themselves with fruits and meats that are available in the forest or the beach, drink the clear and pure water from springs, living in harmony through all seasons, reading time and directions by the help of the sun and constellations, and most importantly, embracing the soul of nature by breathing with it, not killing it. 

I personally believe that all existing problems we found in the society came from economics; the need of money to buy this and that. And to make money means one has to work, so then there are job vacancies available from all over the place. But job vacancies can never be enough for billions of people in the world, hence the unemployments, or cases where a man was working for a job that he does not desire. Today's life is dependent on economics. But then again, our economy is completely dependent on natural sources, while nature does not need the help of economics to grow and nurture. I guess I don't need to explain this any further... this has been a common issue among us. 

I believe I'm not the only one who's been longing to live in a complete tune with nature, where we don't need to feel pressure from financial problems, where we don't have to worry about looks or needs, where we don't have to see homeless people wandering around while starving, because nature is a home for everyone. 

I, like many others, may have a dream to achieve all of my goals; to continue my education to the higher level, to learn as much as possible, to intern, to be successful, to become a doctor, to sincerely do my duty, and so on. But above all, I belong to this earth, this loving and caring nature. 

A MATTER OF AGE

I am a 17-year-old girl, and for most girls at this age, especially in my country, seventeen is a special number of age. Most girls celebrate their sweet seventeen with once-in-a-lifetime party, setting their dress codes and birthday theme, inviting their beloved ones and their favorite celebrities (if possible), ordering the most wonderful dream birthday cake, etc etc etc. Also, seventeen is a 'legal age' in here, meaning that seventeen-year-old teens have the right to drive and also to vote. The funny thing is I never even wish to celebrate my birthday in such way because I didn't find my sweet seventeen birthday special, and I don't have a driver's license yet because I don't want to. I'm not saying that sweet seventeen celebration is a bad thing, in fact I always accept my friends' birthday party invitation whenever I can. As for the driver's license, well for those who don't know, my city's streets are rough and wild so anything can happen there! 

When I had my sweet seventeen birthday, the first thing that came into my mind as I start the day is "Why do I have to grow up this quickly?" and so I went throughout the day like nothing happened despite all of the beautiful birthday greetings from people. Aside from many frustrating challenges, I love being a teen, and although seventeen is also a young age I can't deny the fact that I'm getting closer to 20s! I know this sounds silly considering that I'm still far from that age, but as I grow older I have to make some important decisions that would change my life in many ways, of course. This makes me think about something: I'd even like to be a kid again if possible. I kinda miss playing with my lego collections, running Putt-Putt or Pajama Sam on my 90s computer, blowing bubbles on the third floor of my old apartment, molding my playdoh, rolling myself downhill and coming home with dirts all over my body (mom was annoyed by this),  playing hide and seek with friends, creating imaginary friends along with their fairytale-like world with my childhood best buddy, and so on. Ah, memories...

Anyway, most would guess the reasons behind all of this so easily. First of all, you can be as crazy as possible without people judging you! Second, you can have and choose so many exciting opportunities that may change your life. Thirdly, you don't have to think about so many responsibilities and such like most adults do! Also, you can either be careless on dramas, or sitting there enjoying them (or be a part of them, although I do not recommend that). 

But no matter how hard my heart desires to stay being adolescent, who am I to stop the process of growing? This is how nature works, right? And everyone, no matter how rich or important or strong or smart they are, couldn't deny this fact. We all just have to face it, and enjoy everything that comes in our way. 

Come to think of it, it would be kinda creepy if there are no adults in our world when everyone just wanted to stay young forever. Just think about it. Uncontrollable madness everywhere. 

DUTY

I received some strange dreams for 3 nights in a row. Although they were harmless dreams (to me), I felt a very strong feelings during the sessions, feelings that I can't describe in words. Again, those dreams felt so realistic.

In the first dream, I was at a party (I guess, since I saw many people in my group of age) when a punk guy came by. He was wearing a black jacket and looked very thin and unhealthy. He told people that he heard voices in his head, yet no one at the party believed him. He went to the rooftop as the other guys began to mock him from downstairs. I followed the guy, standing right next to him. I wasn't conscious during the dream so what I did was out of control. I began to shout to those guys, telling them to stop mocking him while calling them names. The guy sat on the edge of the rooftop, and before I could see what happens next, I woke up.

In the second dream, I saw a huge and beautiful house that was located on a hill. From the look of it, it was clear that the owner of this house must be very wealthy. There were even more than 4 securities in front of it, and the pillars of the house were carved magnificently. This time I was half conscious, so I climbed my way up and consciously entered the house. 

Yet what I saw inside was out of my expectation. Instead of seeing a luxurious lifestyle of the family who lived there, I saw nothing but thick black smoke covering the entire corner of the beautifully decorated living room. I also felt a strong tension from all over the place. I think I saw the mother of this family, sitting on the sofa with a man, but neither of them looked happy and healthy. 

I searched for the 'source' of the black smoke when I found a girly bed room in the left side of the house. It was the kind of dream room I always wanted when I was little. The walls were covered with childish pastel color, and the bed was royal bed-like. A very young girl, seemingly 8 years old, was sitting in front of her table, but her appearance was a contrast to her own princess-like room. She was, instead, very creepy; thin, pale, and had black marks under her eyes as she gazed to the wall with no expression.

The third dream was less creepy, but still vivid. I received a letter from someone who proclaimed herself as a 24-year-old Korean woman. When I touched the letter, I saw a blurry image of the woman; she had a short, straight and black hair and marks under her eyes, and she also looked pale. 

The message was written in Bahasa and the points were clear; she said that if God is real, it is such an irony that evil is still lurking among the innocence. What happened to her took her beliefs away, and now she's standing on confusion.

At the end of the letter, she told me she was just coming out of a store to buy some groceries innocently like any other women when 3 men kidnapped and raped her. Nevertheless she still wished me a safe and happy life.

I did not make a direct contact with her spirit in my dream, but the letter was so clear and vivid, and the message brought such intense depression from this woman.

My intuition told me many times that these people ARE real, and they came to my dreams not by coincidence. By having visits for 3 nights in a row, I assumed that now it is the time for me to make my first move to help those in need with my (still developing) ability. This is also my second experience on channeling Archangel Michael to help me 'clean' these cases.

The appearance of the first punk guy made it clear that he is a drug addict. The effects, indeed, are 'voices' inside his head, unhealthy and skinny body, empty eyes, and depression (by going on the rooftop, making that suicidal pose). 

I sent a message to him, telepathically, to listen to my voice instead. The words surprised me because they just popped out of my mind like it wasn't me who said it, and now I can't remember a thing. All I can remember is I told him that he is a part of the universe, and the universe resonates nurturing love in every direction. I told him to vibrate this great power by give everyone a smile and tell them how beautiful love can be, and the universe will reflect what he does back to him (law of karma).

When I imagined him in my mind, I saw a flashback of how he was treated as a child. He was ignored by his mother and left abandoned, receiving abuse that caused him to distrust everyone as he became a drug addict. Black aura surrounds his body as a side effect of the psychological agony and drug he's been consuming. It was so thick and deep I still can't clean it on my own, so I asked the powerful Archangel Michael to clean it and look after him. Together, Archangel Michael and I surrounded him with thick pink loving and protective aura instead.



I went back to the big luxurious house consciously through astral projection, still accompanied by Archangel Michael and my own guardian, Aaron. The black smoke was still there. Archangel Michael and Aaron told me that the black smoke is a curse, a side effect from receiving instant wealth (in my place, this is already common. To gain instant wealth, people could go on mystical mountains and ask the spirits on the mountain to make them rich without having to make efforts, but they'll have to pay for the consequence in return; by letting their sons and daughters receive curses). From there I met a spirit whom I believe as a guardian of the young girl. She told me she was the one who contacted me in the first place by sending me to this place, and informed me that my vision of the girl is a sign of her dying soul, although she still looked fine in reality. She searched for my help since I'm capable of neutralizing a curse (as well as creating one) and yet I owed my neutralizing energy.

The angels guarded me to the house's wareroom, a place where the black smoke came from. I found two big black spots facing each other. One of the spots was placed on the walls, the other one was under a mirror.

Archangel Michael and Aaron explained to me that the wall is a strategic place for the wealth-and-curse-energy to flow in every direction, since the wall is standing right in the middle of the house. The mirror, on the other hand, help reflects the energy, making it more intense and powerful. The most powerful energy from the spots, however, flows directly to the girl's room, hence the strong and intense negativity.

With the help of the angels, together we created a luminous white light (the opposite energy of this black smoke) to neutralize the curse. The powerful light broke the spots easily while it vibrated the pure nurturing energy to every corner of the house. The black smoke disappeared in instance, and it was a beautiful sight to see!


I astral projected my way to the Korean woman just to find out that she is already reaching her 2 months of pregnancy as a result of the rape. She was sleeping when I came by, and this is where met her guardian, who told me that she lived with her mother, and there's nothing she can do to help this woman relief herself from the deep trauma. Yet the baby was dying from the traumatic depressions. When I sense her baby, I learned that the baby is a boy with great potential to become a miracle child, and he could be a true guardian for his mother at the times where she needs to heal.

All of the information is true; another dark dirty aura surrounded the woman so intensely. This can be dangerous to both woman and her baby. Again with the help of the powerful angels, we created an impulse to absorb the negativity and break it, drawing white protective aura and pink loving light around her instead. Archangel Michael asked me to project indigo and green light, my personal healing color hue, from her baby, to help clean the leftover negativity.


These activities are still exhausting enough for me because they drain my energy, thus I still have much to learn. Nevertheless I'm happy to help anyway I can, and now I know that whenever I need help I can always channel the angels as they will assist me along the way :)

Namaste.

BASA-BASI

Sudah lama tidak menggunakan bahasa sendiri. Oke, baiklah. Mari duduk sejenak sambil berbasa-basi dan menikmati hari yang akan tergantikan dalam kurun waktu beberapa jam lagi. 

Sudah sekian lama saya aktif menulis di blog ini, dan setelah saya cek lagi sepertinya rata-rata yang saya tulis disini memiliki kesan yang dalam dan berat. Jarang banget saya menceritakan keseharian saya yang sederhana tapi patut disyukuri, sebagaimana blog-blog remaja pada umumnya. Pada dasarnya sih saya emang paling nggak bisa menulis seperti itu. Biasanya saya akan lancar menuliskan sesuatu kalau ide yang mau saya tuangkan bisa dijadikan hikmah bagi diri sendiri dan sesama umat manusia. 

Alasan mengapa tema blog ini terkesan dalam dan berat adalah, blog ini adalah tempat dimana saya bisa mengekspresikan sisi kepribadian saya yang lain, yang jarang saya tunjukkan di muka umum karena tidak semua orang terbiasa menghadapi pribadi seperti ini. Karena saya adalah seorang pemikir, saya memiliki suatu sisi tersembunyi pada diri saya yang dalam dan intuitif. Ketika sedang memiliki ilham, susah bagi saya untuk menahannya. Paling tidak saya butuh 'sarana' untuk menyalurkannya, baik berupa orang yang menurut saya lebih bijak dan bisa dipercaya atau sekedar menuliskannya ke sini. Ekpresi saya sebagai seorang remaja yang tak kunjung pintar sudah tersalurkan lewat teman-teman dan sekolah. Ekspresi saya sebagai seseorang yang doyan berkhayal sudah tersalurkan lewat seni dan musik. Tentu saja sisi saya yang satu ini berhak berekspresi sebebas yang ia mau! 

Lantas, saya pun memiliki alasan mengapa saya lebih sering mengaspirasikan ide lewat Bahasa Inggris, sudah tahu Bahasa Inggrisnya masih pas-pasan :)) Pertama-tama, teman-teman diskusi spiritual saya rata-rata berasal dari belahan lain dunia, dan saya ingin mereka mengerti pengalaman maupun ide saya. Kedua, kini makin banyak orang-orang dari seluruh penjuru dunia yang mulai terbuka 'sensitivitas'nya, dan saya mengerti bahwa mereka butuh bantuan untuk menyeimbangkan diri, baik secara mental atau spiritual. Karena saya sendiri pernah merasakan betapa susahnya menyesuaikan diri dengan keadaan seperti itu, saya ingin membantu orang-orang yang sedang mengalami apa yang pernah saya alami. 

Saya sering menambahkan tulisan 'namaste' di setiap post dan 'love and light' di samping informasi saya sebagai penulis karena saya ingin semua orang merasa dicintai dan berharga. Barangkali sebagian orang yang berkunjung ke blog saya justru tidak mengenal saya, tapi siapapun mereka, mereka sungguh layak untuk dikasihi dan dihargai. Saya ingin semua orang melihat sesamanya sebagai saudaranya sendiri, tak ada lagi rasa iri atau saling membenci atau mendendam. 

Hari sudah malam. Teh di dalam cangkirku sudah dingin. Sekian basa-basinya, selamat malam, saudara! 

"SOME THINGS ARE BETTER LEFT UNSAID."

Namaste. Hope everyone is doing well, hope everyone can feel the great power of unconditional love that The Universe resonates. 

During the week I've been visiting this 'New Post' page many times, typing a few sentences, but eventually deleted them. I did this all over and over again, with different topics that should've been posted here. I don't really know why I keep doing this, there are many interesting experiences I wanted to share.

Whenever I write some words, there's this voice inside my head that keep telling me to stop. I believe that voice is my intuition, which is under my guardian's control.

In such confusion I began to channel my my guardian to ask him about this. Not surprisingly, I got a good reasonable answer. 

"These are your own experiences, your portion for having fun while learning. Others will not have the exact experiences you had. They will find their own way to find whatever they wanted to find. When you share all of your stories they will be influenced by your point of view, therefore not being able to create their own unique path."

Makes sense, isn't it?

However, I'm not going to stop posting my experiences. I'll let my intuition decide whether it's necessary to write or not. I'd also love to answer questions, so if you want to ask  me something related to the development of spirituality, please do! Questions expand one's knowledge. 

Peace be with you. 

INDIGO

I haven't mentioned that term for a while, having afraid that people would judge me again (so most of the time I use 'crystalline' instead because it's not as common as indigo). Well it was actually my fault so I don't blame anyone and I'm quite thankful for what has happened to me because it made me wiser. Besides the fear of judgments I began to feel that a label is unnecessary so since then I've never addressed myself as an indigo to public anymore. However, I feel the urge to share my opinion about the true  meaning of this 'term' in here. 

Thanks to technology, I'm able to communicate with interesting people from all over the world. Social Networks, as well as this blog, give me the opportunity to talk with new indigo friends and wise, nurturing people, reunite with 'old friends and family', and share knowledges. Their words are blessings to me, and by this post I want them to know how special they are to me. They gave me insights and enlightenment to understand myself as well as the universe, and those are what I've always been craving for. 

My indigo friends are very empathic and psychic so we often do fun things to train our abilities together. I find out that every single one of us have a prominent psychic and non-psychic strength/ability, which is very interesting. I've literally met some in astral projections and dreams as well as participating in some fun psychic games with them. We also drift ourselves into deep conversations, and this post is related to one of our topics, which is about 'indigo as the chosen ones'. 

To be honest, I've been disturbed with the fact that people are referring 'indigos' as 'the chosen ones', giving the impression that indigos are superiors and special compared to others. they even make this local TV Show about indigos showing their skills and abilities to see ghosts or spirits or whatever (which are obviously fake) just to entertain others. How can I tell that it's all fake? Well, true indigos do not use their abilities for such unnecessary stuffs. The abilities true indigos have are for helping others, not for entertaining purpose. Looking from the way they act in front of the camera, it's just so obvious that they're faking it. I'm not even surprised when I hear complaints about this  show from other local friends that are like me. It's like people are exaggerating this phenomenon (which is what I've mistakenly done years ago. but thanks to my developing mind, I now understand how annoying this could be). 

Besides giving such impression, I personally don't think that indigos really are the chosen ones. Just because indigos are psychic empaths doesn't mean we are the chosen ones, psychic ability is just a gift indigos have to develop. And developing an ability is proper ethic for all, because everyone has a gift to be used in this world.
Someone asked me if he an I, as indigos, are the chosen ones, and this is my (extended) answer:

"Well I don't know about others but in my opinion, nobody choses me to do a certain task in this world. I'm just repeating what others do; living and dying. I feel the urge to help others, as well as nature, because like everyone else I'm not a permanent occupant in here. The foods I eat, the air I breathe, the water I drink, are not mine. It would be so rude if I end up destroying everything nature has lovingly given me for free, so I have to return the favor."

Indigos are not always conscious enough to nurture each other, though. I once had a not-so-nice argument with an indigo friend of mine. And I still do mistakes and bring troubles which I believe as a normal thing because everyone, not to mention indigos, has flaws. that's why every single individual has a prominent ability to cover other people's flaws. 

So my conclusion is, indigos are not any different from anyone. We're all the same. 

FACULTY OF MEDICINE

"I SOLEMNLY PLEDGE to consecrate my life to the service of humanity;

I WILL GIVE to my teachers the respect and gratitude that is their due;

I WILL PRACTICE my profession with conscience and dignity;

THE HEALTH OF MY PATIENT will be my first consideration;

I WILL RESPECT the secrets that are confided in me, even after the patient has died;

I WILL MAINTAIN by all the means in my power, the honour and the noble traditions of the medical profession;

MY COLLEAGUES will be my sisters and brothers;

I WILL NOT PERMIT considerations of age, disease or disability, creed, ethnic origin, gender, nationality, political affiliation, race, sexual orientation, social standing or any other factor to intervene between my duty and my patient;

I WILL MAINTAIN the utmost respect for human life;

I WILL NOT USE my medical knowledge to violate human rights and civil liberties, even under threat;

I MAKE THESE PROMISES solemnly, freely and upon my honour." - Declaration of Geneva

For now on, I have to wait for the moment where I can finally have the legal permission to read this declaration with all my heart. 

I've made my final decision for my future, indeed. I want to use my knowledge for humanity, for the sake of a better, peaceful world, where everyone could experience welfare. 

I've been a science student for approximately 2 years (specifically, physics student), not knowing what I would be in the future. People would say I should seek for faculties that can offer me careers with good fortune, such as petroleum engineering, electronics engineering, etc. But none of these interested me. I'm not looking for a fortune-guaranteed careers and a fancy life. None of these matter for me because I believe in the concept of good karma: when you do good, when you love and help others, good things will automatically come to you as a reward. I only wanted to learn and feel happy at the same time. And maximum happiness will be felt if I'm able to help others.

(Now I'm not saying that fortune-guaranteed careers are bad. If people with such career(s) could use their knowledge properly, paying attention to any possible effects they could give to nature as well as humanity, they will find a way to participate in making the world a better place, either.)

In all my life I've been disturbed with the fact that life on the earth, not to mention in my own country, is still surrounded with unfairness. The unfortunate lose their life just because they couldn't afford for anything that can give them welfare. This feeling got more intense when I did my internship in a hospital located on a remote area, where I saw kids that are unaware of hazardous chemicals on the hospital, people that are unaware of their own hygiene, etc. Most people that had to stay at the hospital were ill because they do not understand how dangerous things around their environment could be. This is ironic for me, knowing that we live in the high-tech era, where everyone is expected to know things better. 

From that day, I always tell myself to use my knowledge for others in need. I don't want to waste my life dreaming about it without doing anything. I don't want to accept challenges and struggle in college just for my own future.

However, there seems to be a blockage when I could finally make my decision. Many people told me that as I enter the Faculty of Medicine, I would 'lose' life, not being able to socialize with others, having to do 5 tests sometimes in one of the weekdays, having to deal with stress, etc etc etc. Well, you know what? I don't even mind. All students have to sacrifice something as they enter the college world. And 'not being able to socialize with others' sounds silly. 

I just hope that the universe would bend in my favor. I want to make everyone's life better, really. 

9.30 PM

This week I've gotten so exhausted so I was kinda experiencing what I called as 'emotional storm', which isn't healthy in all aspects. The emotional storm caused me to reveal my other messed-up personality (well... I don't know how to explain this. I'm a complicated gemini and I find it hard to understand myself either). Good thing I was alone when the extreme exhaustion messed my mind. Fortunately now, I'm fully rested (since I spent the entire morning lying on bed), so I'm able to think clearly again. Good thing today is a holiday!

Yesterday I spent the entire day at school because I had my IGCSE Biology "Alternative to Practical" test. Lucky for me I did pretty well, which makes me feel happy because I thought I won't be able to make it. We seldom discuss that part of the paper so we found trouble answering some questions. We had the test after school, so those who were taking biology for IGCSE had to stay overtime. My school is far away from home and my school car couldn't wait for me, so I had to look for a friend who brought private transportation. Fortunately, at the same moment some friends of mine were taking the traditional dance lesson so I could go home with them, but I had to wait until they were finish, which took about an hour after the test. And I was super tired at that moment, physically and mentally. 

However, I was grateful to have spent such a long time on my way back home because I was able to talk with my friends. We've been busy so it's hard for us to hang out with each other nowadays. We planned to go on a trip at after we graduate (because we desperately NEED a vacation), probably to Jogjakarta and Bali. I've never been to Jogjakarta and for some reasons I desperately want to visit Candi Borobudur. And as for Bali, I've been there twice, but the last visit was years ago, so I'd be pleased if I can go there again. 

Well yeah, I kinda suck at writing a recount so my apology if this post sounds boring. This is not the only entry for tonight, though. :)

COLORS OF LIFE

While the earth is crying and suffering, we're struggling to see the bright side of life. I've experienced sadness and confusions throughout the year while at the same time, hearing typical stories from others as well. 

However, when one seeks, one finds. Seek for love and you'll find it. Seek for happiness and you'll find it. Seek for abundance and you'll find it.

While swimming in the sea of sadness and pain that covers the world, I've seen candles that illuminate along the way. No matter how simple their stories are, they made my days.

THE BEAUTY OF LOVE

My dad was just retired from a company he's been working on for approximately 20 years, and now my family is struggling with financial problems as both of my parents have to sacrifice a lot of money for their new businesses while having to pay for taxes and me and my brother's schools. Feeling the urge to work for my own pocket money so I don't have to ask my parents for it, I began a small business of selling painted jars since weeks ago, and thankfully it goes pretty well and it attracts many people, mostly teachers in my school.

What's interesting from this activity I've been working on is that most of the painting requests I got from teachers are paintings of their children, paintings of themselves, and paintings of other teachers who's been working with them. Whenever they describe their requests, their faces would go bright after a long tiring day. They unconsciously show bright expressions on their exhausted face. 

From what I've seen, I can obviously tell how much my teachers love their children and co-workers, and of course, themselves. Besides feeling proud that I can independently work for myself without putting burdens on my parents, I'm happy that my small business can help my teachers express their affection. 

Pretty much a simple thing, but this makes me think about this: if my family did not experience this kind of struggle, I would not learn the importance of being independent, and the most important thing of all, I would not see that simple view from my teachers that eventually made my day. 

DROPS OF HAPPINESS

In all my life I've met people from all kinds of backgrounds. I met the very wealthy people, I met the middle-class people like myself, I met people under the middle-class group, and I also met the poor. 

However, from the conclusion of my own experience, the most excited and happy people are those who came from the middle class and below. While struggling with money for living in reality, they show no burdens at all! They do their job cheerfully while approach others into a light and enjoyable conversations. 

One of the example I can see every time is my grandmother's housekeeper who's been helping my family for over than 30 years. She's actually older than grandmother herself but she refused to go home and chose to stay with our family instead. She cannot do much due to her age, but she always does what she can wholeheartedly. 

 Despite having to deal with many health problems, she refuses to take a long rest, and she does her job with patience and a smile on her face. Since she's been working with us for a very long time, she knows everyone in my family, so she always asks about everyone, even the ones she hasn't seen for years. And even if my cousins can sometimes be annoying to her, she always responds by serving us her iced tea (our family favorite). :)

Although she only earns less than a million rupiah each month (a standard earnings for housekeepers in here), she seems happy with her life, and she does her job with passion. She does not care about how much she gets and she seldom thinks about herself. 

"Money can't buy happiness (and love)." An old statement, but very true, indeed! :)

Namaste!~

CYCLE

"This story ends where it began." - Dream Theater, Octavarium

I've been feeding my mind with some critical thinking again for the past few weeks, thinking about how the universe actually works. We've seen many forms of life, many movements, many processes, many evolutions, and I got something interesting from what I've learned. 

I headed back to the 10th grade, where I used to study geography, that which taught me about the rain cycle, the evolution of the earth's surface, and so on. And now I have learned about the law of karma, the law of attraction, as well as reincarnation. The systems from the first sentence and the second are different of course; the first one came from science and the other one came from spiritual insights and not everyone believes in them. However, those systems share something in common.

Yes, the universe has no limits, and so is everything inside of it. so is the nature, so is the earth, so is life. So is distance, so is time. 

Then came to my understanding that everything works in cycle; a cycle ends at its beginning as well as it begins at its own stop, repeating the same phase all over and over again. A cycle is an expression of infinity; from mathematics we know that a circle's rotational geometry is infinite, and a cycle works like a circle. 

Life replaces death as well as death gives birth to life.

Day replaces night and night replaces day. 

Our earth, as well as other planets, orbits the sun. The sun orbits the center of the galaxy. 

Water is taken from the surface of the earth to the sky, forming clouds that grow heavier by time, as they form rain to fill the earth with water again. 

When you do good, you will receive good things in life, and those good things in life will keep making you good. 

When you love, you will experience the beauty of love others share with you. 

When you seek with desire, you will find answers or results. 

Namaste!~

MY RESPOND TO STUDENT BRAWLS

As an Indonesian student myself, I would like to express my deepest condolences to victims of student brawls last week. I sincerely hope that education institution can help by taking actions to prevent this from happening again in the future, and to create a safe and nurturing educational atmosphere among all students in our beautiful country. 

First of all, I am writing this in english so that others from outside of my country can learn from what has happened in here, and I am writing this in education point of view only. I do not mean to make my country looks bad, but I do want my country to be a better place. 

In my opinion, the student brawls tragedy is a sign of the country's educational failure. This can be seen by how most of us are being pushed so hard to reach academical success whilst forgetting to take notice of our characteristics development. 

There is Ujian Nasional (UAN, or National Examinations), an event for all 6th, 9th, and 12th graders that will determine their academical ability. The ones who aren't able to reach the passing grades will lose their access to continue their education on the higher grade, not to mention labeled as 'failures', in a smooth way that is. But still, in most cases failures from reaching the standards cause many psychological breakdowns that may lead victims to violence and even suicidal actions. 

From an experience of a friend who went to Japan for student exchange program, he was surprised to see that he was the smartest student in his class. We all know that Japan is a well-developed country, so he thought curriculum in Japan is harder than in Indonesia. This made him questioned his country's educational system, which uses curriculum that is considered hard for most, but our country's development is still stagnant while Japan has already moved on far from us. In fact, some intelligent people in here, sadly, fell to corruption and terrorism cases. 

He also noticed how polite everyone is in Japan, and how discipline they are. Everybody is busy, but they know that they have responsibilities to carry with. So what do you guys think?

Our educational system uses high standard that has been proven to create intelligent people our country can rely with, but in fact, some of them are lacking of character, which lead these people into crimes that eventually make our country remains stagnant. 

Also, I came from a private school that is, luckily, very supportive to their plural students that carry different gifts such as science, arts, sports and all. Teachers in my school are very passionate to teach, so besides giving us lessons they are also very firm in case of their students' behaviors. This can be a bit annoying sometimes to be honest (hehe), but I know that the reason why they are doing it is for our own good, and I am very grateful to be there, because my school has shaped my present character. 

However, sadly, some students out there aren't as lucky as I am. In some other schools, there are teachers (who aren't so passionate in teaching and being misplaced due to the economy, perhaps?) use violence to teach their students. I've witnessed this myself when I was at elementary school. A friend of mine couldn't play any musical instruments, and at the music class he was joking around by playing random notes on the keys. Unfortunately, out music teacher was really angry when he heard that. He came to my friend and kicked him in front of other students. I regret that I didn't do anything that time, because I was also scared. 

My point from the past memory is, teachers are meant to teach, either in academical and characteristic aspects. Teacher is a 'role model' for students, because students will carry their teachings for the rest of their life. If teacher used violent in his/her teaching methods in the first place, what would the students be? 

Besides violence, there are also teachers that focus only on their students' academical achievements, so they do not care if their students fight or mock each other outside of their class. Yes, this leads to violence among students too and that is obvious, I think. 

So how can our citizen helps us to prevent the student brawls from happening again? There are TONS of ways, I believe. We can create educative programs that are fun for all and beneficial for students involved in them. I have some ideas of my own and I would like to share them in here, either.

1. JOURNALISM FOR YOUTHS. I heard from some of my social student friends that they are interested in journalism, so I think, why not create a special media for students? Those top local television channels or newspapers can create at least weekly program that involves students, chosen or volunteered from different schools, as they can experience being in journalism world by being cameramen, presenter, journalists, editors and so on. The topics they have to present should be educative, too, like local cultures (since we have tons of them), local travel sites, and so on.

2. TEENAGE MILITARY. Those who are involved in student brawls must have so many energies yet they use them in a wrong way. And through teenage military, they can use their energies in a good way, as long as the military practices themselves are nurturing for the students. This has been applied on other countries, and perhaps if the government decided to open dorms for students who wanted to join the youth military, that can help them protect our country too. Benefits to all!

3. TEENS REACT, INDONESIAN STYLE. I enjoy that youtube channel! Teens React choses teenagers and give them a particular video for them to respond to. Now, perhaps our top local channel can create similar programs, using volunteering students and airing their respond to particular videos that can help them think critically, such as corruption cases, bullying cases, the beauty of our country's nature being destroyed, and so on. Using positive topics like our rich cultures or different and unique traditional children games from all over the country may work too, of course.

4. SCIENCE RESEARCH FOR STUDENTS. We all know that Indonesia is rich in natural sources and all, so why not develop them into something that is beneficial for our folks as well as our nature itself? There are tons of students that are especially interested in science (I'm one of them) and our local top universities, such as Institut Teknologi Bandung (ITB) or Universitas Indonesia (UI) can create a big event by choosing participants from different schools (both public schools and private schools to make it fair). The program can create groups of students that will make different research as they must present their result after the deadline.

5. INDONESIAN (YOUNG) LAWYERS CLUB. I've talked about a program for science students, so now let's take this from social student's side. Indonesian Lawyers Club is one of the most favorite programs in here, so why not give it a chance for youths? Since social students are very critical in case of politics, economics and so on, this should help them develop their ability to think critically and to communicate properly in public event.


Hope this helps. Good day to all of you! Selamat malam :)

BIG BROTHER

Life gets interesting when you meet people and you eventually realize there is no such thing as coincidence in the relationship you build with them. This happens to me many times, and now I'm going to share one of my experiences related to this :)

I was an active member of a group in a social network that consists of crystalline folks like myself. One day, someone gave a comment on a post I also responded to. While reading his comment, my intuition rang a bell inside my mind as I came to a conclusion that this guy may be related to me at some ways, so I followed my instinct and added him. 

As he approved, I messaged him to say how familiar he seemed to me, although at that time I was not so certain since we met through the internet and it wasn't possible to see him in person because we lived in different sides of the planet. As we continued our conversations I figured out later that he is familiar with Ancient Egypt while I also came from there in one of my past lives. I couldn't see a clear image of our relation at that moment (because past-life readings work best for me if I can have direct eye, or palm contact with the subject), but we kept chatting and chatting about tons of things (mostly about philosophy, our thoughts on the government and systems and not to mention our strange experiences) and we eventually got to know each other very well, and day by day the feeling that a connection exists was getting stronger.

Later when we began to know each other, I recalled my past memories, pulling the time back to the ancient time. And in that vision I saw a man summoning something I assumed as one of the gods (although I couldn't see a clear image my assumption came from the vivid appearance of the wings; they were gold-like). The man, I thought, was this guy I've been talking to, because he is still a natural exorcist, as this must be related to what I saw. 

After weeks of our endless conversations I received another vivid dream of being in a room full of books and scripts while listening to a man with white shirt who was talking about humanity and stuffs. His voice was so clear but I can't remember anything he said by the time I woke up. I messaged my friend to informed him about my dream, only to find out that the man was himself, because he kept lots of books and scripts and he tend to rant when talking (that can be a reason why he sounded so clear but I forgot everything he said). In the plane of reality he wasn't conscious of my astral presence, though, but that marks his first appearance in my dreams. 

It didn't take that much of time until he also informed something that excited me since it sounded really awesome. This is what he said:

To my surprise the classroom dream was similar to a quick vision I had the night before I received this message, and since it was a vision I was rather conscious about it, and perhaps that is why I was excited to see him there.

As the dreams happened to both of us and we began to be aware of the strong connection, we figured that we must be more than just cousins or so. He must be my past life brother, regarding the fact that he has a different character but still share similarities with me. He took a role as a shape-shifter while I have what he called as mild spirit, perhaps expressing female energy while he is expressing male in our family relationship.

It was also through him that I searched deeper information about my past lives, especially to a past life that is very significant to me; a role as a princess in an ancient kingdom that was once standing so marvelously on my current country.  Through that past life, I gained my ability to heal naturally, to connect with spirits and to 'travel' with my astral body. I also learned deeper about spiritual developments in Bali, which is one of the most sacred place on earth. Without our conversations both of us wouldn't have known. We learn so much from each other.

What's even funnier is that we both decided to take some break from spiritual developments for a while (focusing on the plane of reality before getting ready for the big shift) whilst not telling each other about it before I eventually messaged him to inform that I'll be busy so I won't be available for some time. It's funny because somehow our minds are still connected because we have so many similar thoughts at the same time yet we are still unaware about that sometimes.

We both concluded later that this phenomenon of reuniting with members of past life family is now happening worldwide, as we slowly begin to raise our consciousness for the past as a part of the present and the future, and consciousness for connections to everyone we meet. Thus, all of us will be aware that we are actually one and we can never get separated from one and another. We must help each other, we must love each other, and the most important thing of all, love ourselves.

Namaste!

NATURE IS ALIVE IN ALL ASPECTS; CRYSTALS

I think I haven't post anything in English for a while, so as discussing about spirituality because I was too home sick, so most of my posts were about my far-away hometown. So I decided to write one of my amazing experience this month. 

Some part of nature doesn't have thinking capacity or living cells or breath, but nature is alive. Everything existed in nature has some purposes, including some things we least expect, such as crystals!

Crystals are commonly used for jewelries and other beauty products or decorations, but some of us have no idea what can they do to these crystals  other than beauty, yet. 

My dad worked at a mining company for approximately 20 years, so he received many crystals and stones as gifts even tho mining was not his department during the work. I am always fascinated for whatever he brought home; I recognized later that most of the crystals he carried are pyrites (also known as "fool's gold" because it has a gold-like sparkling color), some others are these glass-like crystals (which I guess later as clear quartz), coral-like white crystal (perhaps an aragonite) and a medium-sized beautiful silver-like stone that is still mysterious. I never knew these stones could be used for spiritual purpose, but I kept some at my room to enjoy their beauty. 

This year, I finally came to a realization about what can I do for these crystal gifts, thanks to this video:

And I eventually felt the urge to buy some gemstones, which purposes is to protect spiritually (because I got attacked few times and it kept me from having a good night sleep) and to 'fix' my heart chakra that was kinda 'injured', causing my empath to work improperly. I started to do some savings (I wouldn't dare to ask my parents for it). 

I looked for some informations about gemstones and their metaphysical powers as I came to a decision to pick lapis lazuli because it suits me best. I came to the only metaphysical store I know in town, seeing so many colorful crystals in all forms, including pyrites and medium-sized clear quartz (and they were really expensive whilst all of the pyrites my dad could get were all free. I'm so thankful :p). Unfortunately, metaphysical stores in my country aren't like those in the US, that provides crystals from all types and forms including the pocket ones that are considered more cheaper. The store only provided crystals in forms of medium-sized and large stones, kilograms, bracelets and necklace. And lapis lazuli was also pretty expensive!

My eyes stopped at a bracelet that which consisted of different gemstones: clear quartz, aventurine, amethyst, agate, rose quartz, tiger eye, and blue chalcedony. I remembered that these stones provide everything I needed in the first place even tho there is no lapis lazuli in there: balancing and clearing heart chakra, healing, protection, and some more. It was sold in a considerable price too, so the stone became mine.

One thing that I didn't know, and I learned from the store is that when you buy a crystal you have to dedicate it by 'cleaning' it with a singing bowl (a bowl that provides beautiful voice if you put a crystal in it and rub it with a special wand) and take the crystal out of the bowl by yourself. Pretty interesting to know, eh?

Of course I wouldn't stop here if I don't mention anything about spirituality. I've been wearing the bracelet for the entire week (including bed time) to see if it does make some change. And my answer is, it actually does! How?

In the first night when I got these gemstones, I was sleeping peacefully whist having a great dream (without any attack), seeing a huge loving eye in the sky as I could feel a serene atmosphere surrounding me. During the days with this bracelet, my sensitivity to people grew back, and I feel the pain from my swelling heart chakra was decreasing. I feel the care of others came back to me again, and I can concentrate better in class (I had an ADD that sometimes keeps me from focusing on a certain amount of time). I also did what the Spirit Science told me to do: putting my crystals under the sun, including the ones from my dad. When I wore my bracelet back the energy is running through my body and soul; it became more powerful! I also put the bracelet into a glass of water (another thing that Spirit Science told me), leave it there for a couple of hours before I drank it and feel the positive difference making my day. 

I also did an experiment by putting my med-sized clear quartz and aragonite under my pillow when I was about to sleep, not yet discovered further information about these crystals. Before I fell into a deep sleep I saw very vivid images of the grown-up me in mid 20s, my far-away friends, and some others, as I eventually came to a lesson I get that clear quartz helps you tune in with other frequencies (I suppose the past and the future are frequencies too) while aragonite gives you the feeling of comfort. Last night when I still did this, and before I completely fell asleep, I also feel a vivid presence of my guardian standing on the right side of the bed (I can tell because the pressure in my right ear was increasing as I saw a blurry pink light). It's been a while since I talked to him last, so we drifted into a very clear telepathic conversation (no usual disconnection and distraction).

So those are some of my experiences with crystals. If you have different experiences, I would love to hear them out! If you wanna buy some crystals and feel the difference on your own, please, go ahead! They are worth to keep! :)

Namaste!

DI BALIK KOTA TEMBAGA

Maaf ya kalo udah pada bosen karena belakangan aku cerita tentang masa-masa SMP mulu hehe, maklum belakangan home sick parah.Tapi kayaknya aku belom pernah cerita tentang apa saja yang ada di Tembagapura, what makes it so special. Memang belakangan kita sering dengar tentang kerusuhan yang kerap terjadi disitu, tapi apa salahnya sih bercerita tentang sisi positif sesuatu? :)

Sporthall Tembagapura

Suatu sore di tikungan jalan menuju Hidden Valley.  

Pemandangan depan rumahku yang tercintah

PANORAMA

Tempat lalu-lalang bus yang mistik, dan juga tempat yang sering dilewati para pejalan kaki di pagi hari. Sebenarnya Panorama itu hanya jalanan, yang sunyi dan dikelilingi oleh bukit-bukit berhutan. Di salah satu bukitnya, ada jalan petak yang hanya bisa dilewati orang asli, karena jalan itu menghubungkan Tembagapura dengan pedalaman. Tempat ini juga rawan longsor, makanya bahaya kalo lewat situ selama musim hujan.  

Persis di bawah panorama ada sungai yang sering dijadikan tempat main anak-anak Agute (sayang sekali aku nggak punya fotonya karena lokasinya lumayan ekstrim untuk membawa alat elektronik). Setiap kali ke sana sama teman-teman, kura-kuraku pun, yang sangat terkenal di Tembagapura karena sering aku bawa-bawa, dibawa serta, dan biasanya kami membuat bedungan kecil buat ngelepasin dia sejenak dari kandang yang kekecilan. 

Nostalgia: Waktu kelas 9, guru Biology kami memilih Panorama untuk praktek 'stem', karena Panorama memang 'kaya pepohonan'. Akhirnya kita sana ramai-ramai, tapi praktek hanya dilakukan selama kurang lebih 5 menitan hahaha. Sisanya kami malah foto-foto dan main-main :p Seusai praktek, bus kota yang waktu itu hanya berisi 3 orang kebetulan lewat tempat itu, dan akhirnya kami memutuskan untuk kembali ke sekolah dengan bus, mumpung rutenya memang melewati sekolah kami.

Setibanya di halte sekolah, Manfred (temen sekelas terajaib yang pernah aku punya), tiba-tiba teriak "Oi! Semuanya pencet bel, ok??" Dan akhirnya semua bel yang ada dalam bis itu kami pencet bersama-sama (entah bagaimana nasib bel itu sekarang). Yang penting kami tiba dengan selamat di sekolah, dan yang terpenting, akhirnya lulus 100%.

Ini foto-fotonya. Foto jalanan Panoramanya masih di hp lama, belum dipindahin. Nanti kalo udah pasti diupload ulang kok :)

Pas praktek biology. Anak-anak cowoknya malah pada kabur -_-

Rex, si artis mungil di Tembagapura, menikmati kebebasan sejenak di kalinya Panorama yang sedang tenang.

AIR TERJUN

Kalo mau kesini, siap-siap capek, apalagi bagi yang nggak biasa sama jalan tanjakan, soalnya Air Terjun hanya bisa diakses lewat jalan kecil yang bener-bener menanjak. Pas di belokan menuju Air Terjun, ada Flying Fox yang jaraknya cuma 5 meteran (dan akhirnya menjadi bahan lelucon buat teman-teman di angkatan), juga 'jalan'. kenapa kata jalan itu aku kutip? soalnya sebenarnya nggak ada jalan disitu, hanya ada gundukan tanah licin berlumut dan sejenis rawa. Kalau beruntung, sebenarnya jalan ini bisa dilewati mobil, tapi dalam waktu-waktu tertentu saja. Kadang untuk alasan yang aku tidak ketahui tempat ini juga sering ditutup. 

Kalau tidak longsor, air terjun adalah tempat yang sangat teramat indah; airnya yang bersih dan alami mengucur dengan deras dan membentuk danau yang dalam di bawahnya. Dulu pas aku kecil, ada kapal-kapalan dari gabus disini, bisa dipakai untuk mengarungi danau air terjun yang dalam. 

Di bagian atas dari air terjun itu sendiri, ada tempat yang sering dijadikan markas rahasia buat anak-anak cowok. Biasanya kalo mau kesana, mereka bawa ikan/ayam mentah buat dibakar di markas dan disantap bersama-sama. Waktu itu cewe-cewe di angkatan diajak ikut, tapi sayang nggak ada yang bisa. Walau begitu kami sudah melihat tempat misterius itu seperti apa; disana ada pondok kecil yang disusun dari ranting-ranting dan tempat buat api yang barangkali dipakai untuk bakar daging. 

Sebenarnya susah mendapatkan restu dari orangtua kalo mau kesana hahahaha. Nggak bisa disalahkan karena tempatnya juga esktrim, banyak batu-batuan besar disana. Sekalinya longsor gawat juga, kan. Untung selama kunjungan aku kesana, nggak pernah ada yang kenapa-kenapa. 

Denger-denger sekarang sudah ada tangga buat para 'wisatawan' yang ingin menikmati keindahan Air Terjun. Tapi aku belum pernah lihat, berhubung tangganya masih baru dan aku udah nggak bisa kembali kesana. Sejujurnya sih, buat aku, yang menaiki tangga itu nggak akan merasakan serunya berciprat-cipratan di air yang sangat teramat dingin dan jernih itu, dan memanjat bebatuannya yang raksasa dan licin penuh tantangan. 

Saran umum bagi para 'pemula' di Tembagapura yang mau ke Air Terjun adalah, jangan pake baju yang bagus! (Sebenernya sih, selama di Tembagapura emang nggak usah pake baju yang bagus-bagus amat hehe. No one cares, dan ujung-ujungnya anda akan terkena cipratan lumpur atau air hujan yang turun tiap sore atau debu dan lain sebagainya :P)

Ini ada beberapa foto Air Terjun dari kunjungan aku yang terakhir kalinya. Sayang waktu itu Air Terjun habis kelongsoran, jadi danaunya tertutup oleh batu-batu. 

Disini, aku memang kaya dan bahagia. 

Waktu itu habis longsor, jadi danaunya dangkal.

BATU BESAR (BATBES)

Siapa sih anak Tembagapura yang nggak tau BatBes? Anak Agute dan para anak expat pun suka memanjati batu raksasa ini. Tempat piknik, tempat nangkring pas libur, dan juga (yang menyedihkannya) tempat buat ngerokok -_- BatBes juga selalu dipenuhi sampah di salah satu sisinya. Semoga orang-orang tolol yang nggak bertanggung jawab itu sekarang sadar mengapa orang-orang di seluruh dunia sedang menyuarakan pentingnya gerakan 'go green'. 

Sebenarnya banyak yang melarang anak-anak untuk memanjati BatBes, tapi tetap saja banyak yang berkunjung kesana. Memang nggak bisa disalahin, di atas batu itu kita bisa melihat seluruh pesona kota sambil menikmati santapan dari Shopping Center bersama kawan-kawan. 

Aku inget betapa asyiknya main umpet-umpetan sama security, mobil, bus, dan ibu-ibu yang suka lewat hahaha! Karena kalo ketangkap basah pasti disuruh turun. Untung batu itu lumayan gede untuk menampung banyak anak yang ingin bersembunyi sejenak. 

Gampang sebenarnya memanjati batu ini, karena ada beberapa bagian datar yang enak dijadiin pijakan kaki. Turunnya pun lebih asik lagi, tinggal merosot sampai ke bawah. 

Curhat sedikit. Waktu terakhir kali ke BatBes, aku sendirian karena temen-temen seangkatan nggak  ada yang lagi berkunjung kesitu. Sedih banget deh pokoknya, karena waktu kesana sama anak-anak Agute seangkatan berasa banget serunya. Lebih sedih lagi pas lihat beberapa batang rokok di sisi kanan batu itu. 

BatBes punya adek, yaitu BatSed (Batu Sedang). Letaknya nggak jauh-jauh amet dari BatBes. Tapi, walaupun ukurannya lebih kecil dari BatBes, BatSed justru lebih susah dipanjati karena permukaannya datar, nggak kayak BatBes yang punya pijakan-pijakan.

Surga kecil yang terlalu malu untuk menampakkan dirinya.

"Ketika kamu sedang berada di atas, jangan lupa menengok ke bawah."

Raymond, temen berantem dan becandaan pas SMP, di atas batbes pas kunjungan terakhir kami disana..

Aku, di atas sebongkah batu, yang besar bagiku dan kecil bagi dunia.

TANGGA SERIBU

Ada banyak cerita misterius tentang tempat ini. Ada yang bilang tempat ini dikerumuni hantu lah, tuyul lah, etc. Tangga Seribu merupakan tempat 'uji nyali'nya anak-anak setempat. Lokasinya berada di Hidden Valley, kompleks besar yang letaknya persis di atas gunung, lain dengan Tembagapura yang ada di lembah. Maka dari itu, disana udaranya lebih dingin. 

Kembali ke Tangga Seribu. Sekarang sih tempat itu sudah di-banned karena tangganya yang mulai lapuk dan dikerumuni lumut tebal. Sebenarnya sih nggak pernah ada yang tahu kenapa tempat itu didirikan. Dan kayaknya pas kecil aku pernah melewati tempat itu sampai ke ujungnya, tapi lupa-lupa inget gitu. Yang aku inget adalah, di ujung sana ada jembatan kayu yang sangat sempit, dan aura sekitar Tangga Seribu memang terasa mencekam, bikin merinding. Barangkali karena tempat itu sangat teramat sepi dan jauh dari kerumunan orang, juga lingkungannya dipenuhi dengan lumut dan pohon-pohon kurus tinggi. 

Persis di depan Tangga Seribu, ada playground yang anehnya, jarang banget dipakai untuk main. Jadi emang berasa banget suasanya creepy-nya. Menurut rumor penduduk sekitar, dan juga cerita seorang teman sekelas yang dulu apartmentnya berhadap-hadapan dengan Tangga Seribu dan Play Ground aneh tadi, kakaknya pernah melihat sosok anak perempuan duduk di salah satu ayunan yang ada disana sambil bergumam nggak jelas. Benar atau tidak, aku tidak tahu. Tapi kalaupun benar, suasanya tempat itu memang sangat mendukung. 

Hidden Valley - Serpihan berlian di penghujung hari. 

AYUNAN TERAS

Kompleks Teras letaknya dekat dengan Shopping Center Tembagapura dan juga Lupa Lelah Club (LLC), tempat bar, dining dan brunch high class. Sebenarnya tempat ini nggak semenarik play ground di sekolah, bahkan sesungguhnya nggak semenarik play ground sepi di Hidden Valley. Tapi entah kenapa ayunan itu jadi tempat favoritnya anak-anak sekolahan. Barangkali karena lokasinya strategis, dan mudah dikunjungi. Dulu pas SMP tempat ini dijadikan ajang 'swing fight' sama temen-temen se-gengku; Amy, Imel, Pricil. Kadang suka ada yang ikut serta dengan kami. Oya, ini foto gila mereka:

Harap maklum, waktu itu kami barusan UAN.

Persis di atas ayunan dan di depan shopping, ada tempat nangkring favoritnya anak-anak lagi, yaitu lokasi parkiran mobil shopping, hehe. Tapi wajar jadi lokasi favorit, karena disitu kita bisa menikmati seluruh pemandangan Tembagapura yang terpapar di bawah kaki-kaki gunung.

GENTENG YPJ

Anak-anak pada demen manjatin genteng ini. Kurang kerjaan emang, tapi nggak bisa disalahkan juga karena somehow tempat itu mengasikkan hahaha. Mau junior kek, senior kek, pasti pernah berpijak di genteng itu (dan ditegur Pak Lazarus atau guru-guru lain yang lewat). Ajaibnya, genteng itu nggak pernah rubuh, walaupun udah diinjekin angkatan demi angkatan.

Sebenernya genteng itu merupakan bagian dari sekolah expat yang kecil (karena mereka emang cuma sedikit) dan terbukti sangat kuat untuk menampung beberapa orang datasnya, bahkan yang penuh lemak kayak diriku dulu (puji Tuhan sekarang langsingan :p).

Selama nggak diinjek pas hujan sih, nggak masalah. Kalo ngga ya sama aja cari mati wkwkwk. Tapi ad saatnya juga genteng itu bisa berumur, syukur aku masih sempat berpijak di atas situ.

Break kegiatan Eco Painting di genteng, mumpung cerah. 

KALI PALAPA

Hmm, nggak banyak yang tau tentang tempat ini sih, barangkali malah cuma aku dan beberapa anak sekompleks yang tahu. Lokasinya tersembunyi soalnya; persis di belakang rumah kecil yang terletak di sebuah jalan buntu. Sayangnya, aku nggak punya foto tempat itu, tapi Kali Palapa adalah bagian dari masa kecil anak-anak Palapa lama. 

Kenapa demikian? Dulu kali itu jernih airnya, meskipun kecil. Jadi sering dipakai buat (sekali lagi), melepaskan si kura-kura fenomenal Tembagapura kepunyaan aku, ciprat-cipratan dikit, atau sekedar main kapal-kapalan kertas. Dulu rumah kecil itu dihuni guru sempoa aku, jadi kalo udah selesai tinggal nangkring ke kali sama anak-anak les lainnya untuk menikmati senja. (oya, sebenernya kura-kura fenomenal itu pun adalah pemberian guru sempoa aku :D)

Kalaupun nggak les, rumah aku berdekatan sekali dengan kali, dan sahabat aku, Amy, tinggal di satu jalan dimana kali itu berada. Jadi kali itu merupakan tempat kami mengekspresikan diri sebagai bocah-bocah SD. 

Sekarang tempat itu sudah berlumut. Terus denger-denger, ada beberapa ular disitu, jadi harus hati-hati. 

Demikian untuk saat ini, selamat menikmati hidup.

(note: beberapa foto di atas adalah milik orang lain; beberapa di antaranya adalah hasil potretan Claudia Astrid Mahler, fotografernya angkatan TA (2009/2010). Maaf ya clau nggak minta izin dulu!)