FACULTY OF MEDICINE

"I SOLEMNLY PLEDGE to consecrate my life to the service of humanity;

I WILL GIVE to my teachers the respect and gratitude that is their due;

I WILL PRACTICE my profession with conscience and dignity;

THE HEALTH OF MY PATIENT will be my first consideration;

I WILL RESPECT the secrets that are confided in me, even after the patient has died;

I WILL MAINTAIN by all the means in my power, the honour and the noble traditions of the medical profession;

MY COLLEAGUES will be my sisters and brothers;

I WILL NOT PERMIT considerations of age, disease or disability, creed, ethnic origin, gender, nationality, political affiliation, race, sexual orientation, social standing or any other factor to intervene between my duty and my patient;

I WILL MAINTAIN the utmost respect for human life;

I WILL NOT USE my medical knowledge to violate human rights and civil liberties, even under threat;

I MAKE THESE PROMISES solemnly, freely and upon my honour." - Declaration of Geneva

For now on, I have to wait for the moment where I can finally have the legal permission to read this declaration with all my heart. 

I've made my final decision for my future, indeed. I want to use my knowledge for humanity, for the sake of a better, peaceful world, where everyone could experience welfare. 

I've been a science student for approximately 2 years (specifically, physics student), not knowing what I would be in the future. People would say I should seek for faculties that can offer me careers with good fortune, such as petroleum engineering, electronics engineering, etc. But none of these interested me. I'm not looking for a fortune-guaranteed careers and a fancy life. None of these matter for me because I believe in the concept of good karma: when you do good, when you love and help others, good things will automatically come to you as a reward. I only wanted to learn and feel happy at the same time. And maximum happiness will be felt if I'm able to help others.

(Now I'm not saying that fortune-guaranteed careers are bad. If people with such career(s) could use their knowledge properly, paying attention to any possible effects they could give to nature as well as humanity, they will find a way to participate in making the world a better place, either.)

In all my life I've been disturbed with the fact that life on the earth, not to mention in my own country, is still surrounded with unfairness. The unfortunate lose their life just because they couldn't afford for anything that can give them welfare. This feeling got more intense when I did my internship in a hospital located on a remote area, where I saw kids that are unaware of hazardous chemicals on the hospital, people that are unaware of their own hygiene, etc. Most people that had to stay at the hospital were ill because they do not understand how dangerous things around their environment could be. This is ironic for me, knowing that we live in the high-tech era, where everyone is expected to know things better. 

From that day, I always tell myself to use my knowledge for others in need. I don't want to waste my life dreaming about it without doing anything. I don't want to accept challenges and struggle in college just for my own future.

However, there seems to be a blockage when I could finally make my decision. Many people told me that as I enter the Faculty of Medicine, I would 'lose' life, not being able to socialize with others, having to do 5 tests sometimes in one of the weekdays, having to deal with stress, etc etc etc. Well, you know what? I don't even mind. All students have to sacrifice something as they enter the college world. And 'not being able to socialize with others' sounds silly. 

I just hope that the universe would bend in my favor. I want to make everyone's life better, really. 

9.30 PM

This week I've gotten so exhausted so I was kinda experiencing what I called as 'emotional storm', which isn't healthy in all aspects. The emotional storm caused me to reveal my other messed-up personality (well... I don't know how to explain this. I'm a complicated gemini and I find it hard to understand myself either). Good thing I was alone when the extreme exhaustion messed my mind. Fortunately now, I'm fully rested (since I spent the entire morning lying on bed), so I'm able to think clearly again. Good thing today is a holiday!

Yesterday I spent the entire day at school because I had my IGCSE Biology "Alternative to Practical" test. Lucky for me I did pretty well, which makes me feel happy because I thought I won't be able to make it. We seldom discuss that part of the paper so we found trouble answering some questions. We had the test after school, so those who were taking biology for IGCSE had to stay overtime. My school is far away from home and my school car couldn't wait for me, so I had to look for a friend who brought private transportation. Fortunately, at the same moment some friends of mine were taking the traditional dance lesson so I could go home with them, but I had to wait until they were finish, which took about an hour after the test. And I was super tired at that moment, physically and mentally. 

However, I was grateful to have spent such a long time on my way back home because I was able to talk with my friends. We've been busy so it's hard for us to hang out with each other nowadays. We planned to go on a trip at after we graduate (because we desperately NEED a vacation), probably to Jogjakarta and Bali. I've never been to Jogjakarta and for some reasons I desperately want to visit Candi Borobudur. And as for Bali, I've been there twice, but the last visit was years ago, so I'd be pleased if I can go there again. 

Well yeah, I kinda suck at writing a recount so my apology if this post sounds boring. This is not the only entry for tonight, though. :)

COLORS OF LIFE

While the earth is crying and suffering, we're struggling to see the bright side of life. I've experienced sadness and confusions throughout the year while at the same time, hearing typical stories from others as well. 

However, when one seeks, one finds. Seek for love and you'll find it. Seek for happiness and you'll find it. Seek for abundance and you'll find it.

While swimming in the sea of sadness and pain that covers the world, I've seen candles that illuminate along the way. No matter how simple their stories are, they made my days.

THE BEAUTY OF LOVE

My dad was just retired from a company he's been working on for approximately 20 years, and now my family is struggling with financial problems as both of my parents have to sacrifice a lot of money for their new businesses while having to pay for taxes and me and my brother's schools. Feeling the urge to work for my own pocket money so I don't have to ask my parents for it, I began a small business of selling painted jars since weeks ago, and thankfully it goes pretty well and it attracts many people, mostly teachers in my school.

What's interesting from this activity I've been working on is that most of the painting requests I got from teachers are paintings of their children, paintings of themselves, and paintings of other teachers who's been working with them. Whenever they describe their requests, their faces would go bright after a long tiring day. They unconsciously show bright expressions on their exhausted face. 

From what I've seen, I can obviously tell how much my teachers love their children and co-workers, and of course, themselves. Besides feeling proud that I can independently work for myself without putting burdens on my parents, I'm happy that my small business can help my teachers express their affection. 

Pretty much a simple thing, but this makes me think about this: if my family did not experience this kind of struggle, I would not learn the importance of being independent, and the most important thing of all, I would not see that simple view from my teachers that eventually made my day. 

DROPS OF HAPPINESS

In all my life I've met people from all kinds of backgrounds. I met the very wealthy people, I met the middle-class people like myself, I met people under the middle-class group, and I also met the poor. 

However, from the conclusion of my own experience, the most excited and happy people are those who came from the middle class and below. While struggling with money for living in reality, they show no burdens at all! They do their job cheerfully while approach others into a light and enjoyable conversations. 

One of the example I can see every time is my grandmother's housekeeper who's been helping my family for over than 30 years. She's actually older than grandmother herself but she refused to go home and chose to stay with our family instead. She cannot do much due to her age, but she always does what she can wholeheartedly. 

 Despite having to deal with many health problems, she refuses to take a long rest, and she does her job with patience and a smile on her face. Since she's been working with us for a very long time, she knows everyone in my family, so she always asks about everyone, even the ones she hasn't seen for years. And even if my cousins can sometimes be annoying to her, she always responds by serving us her iced tea (our family favorite). :)

Although she only earns less than a million rupiah each month (a standard earnings for housekeepers in here), she seems happy with her life, and she does her job with passion. She does not care about how much she gets and she seldom thinks about herself. 

"Money can't buy happiness (and love)." An old statement, but very true, indeed! :)

Namaste!~

CYCLE

"This story ends where it began." - Dream Theater, Octavarium

I've been feeding my mind with some critical thinking again for the past few weeks, thinking about how the universe actually works. We've seen many forms of life, many movements, many processes, many evolutions, and I got something interesting from what I've learned. 

I headed back to the 10th grade, where I used to study geography, that which taught me about the rain cycle, the evolution of the earth's surface, and so on. And now I have learned about the law of karma, the law of attraction, as well as reincarnation. The systems from the first sentence and the second are different of course; the first one came from science and the other one came from spiritual insights and not everyone believes in them. However, those systems share something in common.

Yes, the universe has no limits, and so is everything inside of it. so is the nature, so is the earth, so is life. So is distance, so is time. 

Then came to my understanding that everything works in cycle; a cycle ends at its beginning as well as it begins at its own stop, repeating the same phase all over and over again. A cycle is an expression of infinity; from mathematics we know that a circle's rotational geometry is infinite, and a cycle works like a circle. 

Life replaces death as well as death gives birth to life.

Day replaces night and night replaces day. 

Our earth, as well as other planets, orbits the sun. The sun orbits the center of the galaxy. 

Water is taken from the surface of the earth to the sky, forming clouds that grow heavier by time, as they form rain to fill the earth with water again. 

When you do good, you will receive good things in life, and those good things in life will keep making you good. 

When you love, you will experience the beauty of love others share with you. 

When you seek with desire, you will find answers or results. 

Namaste!~