THE DAY OF KINDNESS :)

I'm wishing a happy Eid Mubarak Day for all dear my Muslim friends! And since it is the day people forgiving each other, asking for forgiveness, and develop kindness, there's nothing wrong with celebrating kindness with these beloved people! There are many ways, for sure, to be kind. And below is an interesting list of '88 Ways to Make A Stranger Smile' (which is also kindness) from http://www.marcandangel.com/;

1. Smile often.
2. Hold a door open for someone.
3. Pay for the person in line behind you.
4. Send a hand-written thank you card to someone who assisted you with something.
5. Clean out all your old clothes and donate them to someone in need.
6. Give a compliment about a waiter, waitress, sales clerk, etc. to his or her manager.
7. Compliment a stranger’s appearance.  Flatter them.
8. Leave encouraging post-it notes in a library books and other random places.  
9. Help an elderly person carry something.
10. Send flowers to someone anonymously.
11. Be a courteous driver.  Let people merge in front of you.
12. Volunteer at a children’s hospital or nursing home.
13. Donate blood.
14. Buy house warming gifts for new neighbors.
15. Introduce yourself.  Make new colleagues, classmates, etc. feel welcome.
16. Inspire others online.  
17. Send letters of appreciation to business owners/managers and other people who support you.
18. Treat everyone with the same level of respect you’d give to your grandfather.
19. Give everyone the same level of patience you’d have with your baby sister.
20. Appreciate people the way they are.
21. Share your lunch or a snack with someone who doesn’t have one.
22. Put some change in an expired parking meter.
23. Check up on someone who looks lonely.
24. Tell your boss, teacher or professor that he or she is doing a great job and that you appreciate what they’ve taught you.
25. Create places and things for others to enjoy.  Like decorating your house for the holidays or creating a piece of art.
26. If you overhear that it’s someone’s birthday, go out of your way to wish them a happy one.
27. Ask someone for their opinion or advice.
28. Bring cookies or bagels to work for everyone.
29. Tip waiters and waitresses well when they deserve it.
30. Be a part of something you believe in.  Those around you will notice your enthusiasm. 
31. Leave a thank-you note for the office janitors.
32. Help bag your own groceries at the checkout counter.
33. Offer your seat to someone when there aren’t any left.
34. Let someone with only a few items cut you in line at the grocery store.
35. Wave to a kid in the car next to you.
36. Spread good news.
37. Repeat something nice you heard about someone else.
38. Remember people’s names and address them accordingly.
39. When you make eye contact with someone, smile.
40. Replace what you’ve used.  For example, fill up the copier or printer with paper after you’re done using it.
41. Share your umbrella on a rainy day.
42. Listen intently to people’s stories without trying to fix everything.
43. Dance with someone who hasn’t been asked.
44. Call a stranger’s attention to a beautiful sunset or full moon.  
45. Give words of encouragement toward someone’s dream, no matter how big or small it is.
46. Ask someone who enjoys cooking for a recipe.
47. Let someone else eat the last slice of pizza or cake.
48. Stop and buy a drink from a kid’s lemonade stand.
49. Help someone get your parking space in a crowded parking lot when you’re leaving.
50. Ask someone you see every now and then if they’ve lost weight.
51. Do a little something extra to make someone else’s life easier.
52. Use all the manners you learned in Kindergarten.
53. Listen to someone’s pain and help them find a path through it.
54. Give without expecting to get back.
55. Encourage others to do one unanticipated kind or helpful act at least once a week.
56. Observe everyone without judging.
57. Say “Please” and “Thank you.”
58. Forgive and let go of anger.  For instance, if somebody accidentally cuts you off in traffic, just let it go.
59. Believe in yourself with all of your heart.  People will notice.
60. Don’t be so serious all the time. 
61. Treat every small interaction with another person as an opportunity to make a positive impact in both your lives.
62. Greed, anger and ignorance.  Avoid all three.
63. Speak the truth.
64. Teach others how to make a difference by setting an example.
65. Help others be independent.
66. Give people the space they need.
67. Lend your shoulder to cry on.
68. Offer encouragement after a failure.
69. Acknowledge people for a job well done.
70. Tell a good joke.
71. Clean up after yourself.
72. Excel at what you do.  People appreciate professionals.
73. Create a care package and send it to an active duty military unit.
74. Redirect gifts.  Instead of having people give you birthday and holiday gifts, ask them to donate gifts or money to a good cause.
75. Stop to help.  The next time you see someone pulled over with a flat tire, or in need of assistance, stop and ask how you can help.
76. Put a small personal touch on everything you do.  People notice and appreciate individuality.
77. Take the time to teach someone a skill you know.
78. Help someone get active.  There’s a coworker or acquaintance in your life who wants to get healthy, but needs a helping hand.  Offer to go walking or running together, to join a gym together.
79. Send a nice email to a tech support representative who has assisted you.
80. Donate food to a charity.
81. Stand up for someone.  Lend your voice. Often the powerless, the homeless, the neglected in our world need someone to speak up for them.
82. If you see a couple taking a self-pic, offer to take the picture for them.
83. Help the weary shopper in front of you who needs that extra two or three cents to avoid breaking a 20-dollar bill.
84. Come to the rescue.  If you realize someone is sick, bring them some hot tea, etc.
85. Stand up for your beliefs without flaunting them.
86. Make yourself available and approachable.
87. Over-deliver on all of your promises and obligations.
88. Be positive and focus on what’s right.

 Interesting, eh? And as for now, I'm going to pick one of these ways, which is repeating something nice I heard from someone else. It's blogger-friendly ;)

So I got tiny pieces of paper and wrote my friends, teachers, and family's name on it, shuffle the papers, and pick one random paper without peeking. From all of the names, I got 'Lana'! Well there are two Lana I know so I gave number for each, the first Lana is my Junior High friend and the second one is my High School friend. And apparently, I got the second Lana!

Lana is a very understanding and stylish person. She's one of these people who loves to listen to my 'weird' stories and she once calmed me down when I panicked because of the crowd (I'm Demophobic). She's, of course, very kind (here's one of her kindness: she drove me home from our school festival and it was very late, so thanks to her I can be home safely!), and I adore her loving and caring family :) She has a deep tolerance towards differences and is sympathetic. Another plus point, she's a nature lover just like me :D

Well that's all for now. Spread the kindness in your own way! Namaste!~

THE SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

It's nice to know that many people are now spiritually awakened from the amnesia of forgetting who they truly are. It is the year in which consciousness embrace the human being, one by one, in every place humans are standing on. I've been talking to many people that are 'connected' with these spirituality stuffs, a simple sign;t humans slowly heal themselves from that amnesia and their souls are growing.

This also means that there are hopes. Consciousness can cure all the brutality and cruelty, egoism which is the main root of all sufferings. Because consciousness make us know who we truly are. There will be no such illusion of pain.

But even tho there are hopes, doesn't mean we just have to sit here and watch, and wait. Waiting will be endless unless everyone takes action.

Let us unite in oneness!

Namaste!

SELF-FORGIVENESS

I did a lot of mistakes that I can never forget.

And yet we all did unforgettable mistakes, leading us to karma.

And without mistakes, we will learn nothing.

Without mistakes, there will be no adventure. 

Without mistakes, life would lose its direction.

Our greatest teacher is our own mistakes.

In fact, there is no such thing as 'wrong' and 'right'. But there is appropriation, depends on what we do.

To make a conclusion about universal appropriation, we need visualization, which is the 'wrong' and the 'right'.

Mistakes are our personal adventure of life. Do not blame ourselves for the mistakes we did. Take the mistakes as our experiences to learn and to gain wisdom.

Because the wise themselves, learn from their own mistakes.

Take a courage to have mistakes and to take some lessons out of it (but of course, this doesn't mean that we have do the same mistake all over and over again XD). Everyone's doing it.

Make peace with yourself. Mistakes are like the heat that purify a diamond.

Namaste!~

THE DARK SIDE OF LIFE

Just read an article about a girl named Junko Furuta, 11-grader who was kidnapped and tortured for 44 days. The tortured was extremely sadistic I can't even imagine how horrific it was, and I didn't realize I clenched my hand too hard while reading the article. And I have no idea why such brutal and heartless people deserve life even though I often stated that everybody deserve some love and chances.

Compared to what this girl had gone through, my chaotic past is nothing AT ALL.

And I am still pitying everyone who darken my days back then. What a shame for me...

Her story opened my eyes that I'm lucky enough to survive a longer life, and a peaceful one. I'm lucky enough to be in 'heaven', in which I often considered as hell, while she's been there in the pure hell for 44 days, until the end of her life. 

We, humans, sure are sick. The earth is innocent yet blamed for every chaos happening in our world. It's a beautiful world, actually. Look at the forests, the sky. the river. the sea. the mountains. And look at the people's life. Such a contrast.

We were placed in such beautiful earth because we suppose to perform beautifully, working together in harmony. Humans have the 'creating' gift, because we are a part of God and share His ability to create. So we create things in earth, experimenting. And here are the results of our experiments. Beside technology, philosophies, wonderful religions, there are egoism and financial system, the two main roots of these chaotic tragedies. Think about it.

We're all hoping that this could end soon enough. We're all tired yet we're in this together. We're ready for some changes. And we are willing to change ourselves for a brighter world.

Namaste!~

THE CELESTIAL JOURNEY; A SHORT STORY BY ME :)

A short story by me, created due to an assignment from my english teacher and for the love of astronomy and fantasies, inspired by the stars of the sky. Maybe someday I'll make some illustrations for this ;) Enjoy!

It was the first day of spring. The elegant flowers colored the soil while mother earth is wearing her beautiful bright blue dress. The joyful birds fly freely underneath the white cheerful clouds. Laughter of happiness is in the air.

It is such a pity that Aaron could only watch the beauty of the day on his bed. He has been there for too long, so long that he hardly remembered the day when he was free to run underneath the horizon. He never could go anywhere except around the hospital. He has been ill in his entire life, forgetting a normal healthy life.

The sound of footsteps nearby broke his wondering mind. A nurse entered his room with a friendly smile.
“Today is your lucky day,” she said. “You have a new friend. She’s over there, beside your room. Perhaps you could introduce yourself to her; she would love to know you.”

“Why should I?” Aaron sighted. “Kids in here always hate me. I never really have a friend.”

“Oh well.” The nurse said. “It’s just that you’ve been alone all the time and you never been friendly with anyone. Try to smile a little bit and say simple things like ‘hello’ or something.”

“Oh, shut up.” Aaron grumped. The nurse shook her head as she walked away.

It was finally lunch time. Being so bored at his room, Aaron decided to have his meal at the hospital’s canteen. Along with a nurse who guarded him, he began to eat his lunch as he stare at a girl that came nearby. “Ah, that’s your new friend.” The nurse said. “I guess I should leave you too here for a while.” The nurse leaves Aaron alone in the table.

She stopped in front of Aaron and smile. Confused, Aaron awkwardly greets her. “Umm… hello.”

She laughed, making Aaron felt more confused. “Why are you laughing?”

Still laughing, she sat beside Aaron. “I’m happy!”

Being happy in a hospital? How weird. Aaron thought. “So… who are you? Are you new in here?”

“Guess who I am!”

“You’re weird.” Aaron replied. “And for being weird, you must have owned a weird name.”

“Correct!” she said. “And I guess you can’t guess my name because of that. I’m Taygeta.”

“That really is a weird name. I’m Aaron.”

She stares at Aaron for a while. “Why aren’t you smiling?”

“Because I don’t want to.”

“Yes you do, you just can’t find a reason to smile.” She said.

“Really?” Aaron wondered, found that Taygeta was right. He’s been lonely for too long, stuck at the hospital by himself. How could he find at least one reason to be happy?

“Yes and you know it.”

“So why are you happy?” Aaron asked.

Taygeta smiled wisely. “Let me tell you a secret. Beyond knowledge, there’s imagination. Behind every star of the skies, there’s a message that helps you find the true happiness.”

Aaron was confused, could not understand what she meant. “Look at the stars tonight, perhaps you will understand.” She replied, as she finished her meal and walked away to her room, leaving the confused Aaron in the table.

The sleepy sun painted the sky yellow, as it turned darker and darker, and little sparkling lights began to shine in the dark sky like a glamour glittery gown. Aaron quietly sneaked to the hospital’s park, stared at the stars with curiousness.

“What a silly thing to do,” he said to himself. “But for years I’ve been stuck in this room, I just want to be happy and free even if it’s just for a while.”

Someone pat Aaron’s shoulder. Aaron looked back. It was Taygeta.

“What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be sleeping?”

“I’m going to take you to a journey.” She said mysteriously. She then pulled her sleeve and showed Aaron her crystal ring. “My mom gave this to me before she left,” Taygeta said. “This then become the most precious thing I have ever own.” She pointed the ring to the stars.

Suddenly, everything turned bright that Aaron had to close his eyes. And when he opened them, he hardly remembered what just happen and strangely found himself standing on an endless bridge.

“Where am I?” he said to himself as he began to look around him. Surprisingly, Taygeta was beside him.

“You’re silly! Don’t you know where we are?”

“No.” Aaron replied. “Where are we, really?”

“We’re in the aurora, silly!” Taygeta said. She danced and laughed joyfully. “This isn’t just a normal bridge! This is an aurora!

“Come on, don’t you just stand there! Let’s take a walk!” Taygeta took Aaron’s hand, holding it as she ran along the Aurora Bridge.



Taygeta and Aaron were amazed by the view around them. They could see the earth underneath, and billions of stars on the endless space. Never before they see such beautiful view in earth. Aaron felt strange; he never had such feelings before, and he cannot describe how he felt. And somehow, he loved these feelings. As he traveled along the aurora with Taygeta, he forgot about his frustrations and pressures.
Taygeta slowly stopped. “Look!” she said, pointing to a group of stars. “Did you see that? It’s Pegasus!”
“Where? I can’t see any.” Aaron replied. Taygeta gently pulls Aaron’s hand, connecting each star with it, while Aaron began to understand.

As the stars connected to each other, the constellation turned into a real Pegasus




Pegasus may stick in the sky for too long, but he will always be a horse of freedom. And he wisely learns so much on the earth underneath his kingdom as he never complains about being stuck in the sky. He is grateful for what he sees, and now he had turned into a valorous being.


The valorous Pegasus came closer. Taygeta pulled Aaron’s arm once again. “Come on,” she said. “Let’s have a fantastic ride together.”

While Taygeta and Aaron climbed Pegasus’s back, he spread his magnificent sparkling wings and began to fly. Aaron finally did what he never done; he laughed. He could feel the beauty of freedom passionately. He stared at the shining stars, feeling as happy as a dancing angel.

“Look,” Taygeta said, pointing to another group of stars, connecting a star to another. “That’s Gemini constellation. Do you know that the Gemini is a constellation of a twin’s souls?”




STORY OF GEMINI
The twins were born under the wings of the Swan, Zeus. Castor inherited tenderness from their mother. Pollux inherited immortality from their father. When Castor was wounded to die in a war, Pollux cried to Zeus, the Almighty, "Take away my immortality and let us die together." Thus, the twin stars are twinkling side by side in the eternal sky. (taken from http://kagayastudio.com)


“So they finally die together and turned into that beautiful constellation?” Aaron asked. Taygeta replied with a nod.

Leaving the Gemini constellation behind, Pegasus stopped behind huge colorful dusts. “What’s that?” Aaron asked. “That’s a dying star. Even the stars in the sky get older. Yet, they die with honor, spreading beautiful lights in the sky.”


STORY OF THE STARS
Stars live their life upon ever world, hearing many wishes and bringing hope to each being. They brighten the horizon of our world, showing the way for the lost. Even if they permanently stuck on the sky, just like the Pegasus, they use their life for other’s good. They are selfless, and when the time comes, they die in honor and happiness, spreading the light of peace.


Aaron sat on Pegasus’s back silently, reflecting his journey with Taygeta on the endless outer space. He finally understood the reason of his selfishness and frustrations. He shamefully remembered his life back then in the hospital, as he quietly sent his promise to the stars that he will renew himself.

Pegasus landed on the galactic railroad, the Milky Way. Taygeta and Aaron stood on the magical road with amazement. “Look around you,” Taygeta said. “The stars are no longer just normal lights of the sky.”

Aaron opened his eyes widely as the stars slowly connected to each other. Aaron saw Orion the hunter, Gemini the twins, Cancer the crab, Leo the lion, Virgo the maiden, Lynx, Ursa the bear along with his cub the Ursa Minor, Draco the dragon, Hercules the hero, Aquila the eagle, and other magical beings of the sky.

Suddenly, a cluster of stars underneath the Taurus shone brighter than the rest as Taygeta noticed. Pegasus snuffled. “I believe each human belongs to a star.” Pegasus finally said. He took Taygeta and Aaron, flew to a group of bright stars.

“This is Pleiades, also known as the Seven Sisters. Your name, Taygeta, is also the name of one of these stars, so as your mother, Celaeno.”

Pegasus pointed to the Celaeno, and Taygeta slowly saw her mother’s reflection in it. Taygeta began to cry with tears. “Mother!” she cried. Taygeta ran to the Celaeno as her body began to brighten and sparked. As Taygeta hugged her mother’s reflection, she turned into a beautiful light, uniting herself with the Taygeta star, which is near Celaeno.

Aaron could not believe what he saw. Pegasus turned himself to a constellation, and the confused Aaron sat on a meteor, leaving everything in his journey behind. He was getting nearer to the earth, as he realized that his journey was over. Suddenly, everything turned bright again.

Aaron opened his eyes, found himself in a strange place. He wasn’t lying on his bed, nor sitting on the park by himself. He has never been here before. He waved to the nurse who came nearby, trying to get her attention. But no one noticed. Everything was confusing until Aaron found himself lying on the coffin. What happened? He thought, frightened. And where’s Taygeta?

“Poor thing,” the nurse said. “I found him lying on the park last night, all alone by himself. But he seemed so happy that I’m starting to wonder about what he sees or what’s in his mind back then.”

“So I was alone, all the time?” He said to himself. “And Taygeta never existed?”

A wind blows gently and everything’s turned bright once again. Aaron couldn’t see anything but his own soul.

“Taygeta died long before you do. She was buried in the soft and beautiful petals, among the stars of the sky. She returned to earth for you, Aaron. And now, it is your turn.” Someone said.
“What turn?” Aaron asked.

“To teach humans about what you have learn in your journey with Taygeta. Humans seek happiness, but they are blind by their own selfishness, and selfishness is not the answer of what they seek. You need to open their eyes, Aaron, just like Taygeta opened yours.”

Someone slowly appeared in Aaron’s sight. It was a precious, wonderful friend of him; Taygeta. “I’ll be waiting for you in the stars,” she said. “And we will have our journey again, together!”

Aaron smiled, as he turned into a human boy again; found himself lying on the bed of another hospital. He walked outside of his room, noticed another room in front of his own.

“You have a new friend,” someone said. “Maybe you could introduce yourself to him. He would love to meet you.”

“Why should I? I don’t need friends, and I never really have one.” Another person replied.

Aaron laughed with joy and passion. He could hardly wait for bringing this child to the celestial journey.


FIN

AUTOBIOGRAPHY.

16 years old. Breathing in the hands of imagination and fantasies, until the present carried me to reality.

I used to read stories all day long, or at least create them myself by picturing the tales. During the midnight, I would sneak out through the visitor room's door to stargaze, discover that it's a big universe, and I'm a small part of it. When the sun awakes from his sleep behind the green mountain, I will run outside and found myself standing in the middle of an open forest. When I was little, I always imagine little fairies dancing through the leaves of trees. But now I realize that they really are real.

As the color of the horizon changes, I carried my bag and my head full of imagination with me and went home, where it's safe, warm and secure. Where my parents await me for dinner. Where I can take a warm bath before sneaking out again in midnight.

That is my past. My personal piece of happiness, despite the bitterness I had during childhood. The past remains as a memory, and now the present takes turn in raising me.

My life has completely changed. It feels like God has erase all of my old days and draw the new ones. Fate took me to a brand new place called the city.

The city. A place with many different people coming from different backgrounds. A place where I found my best friends of life. Culture shock? Of course. In fact, a huge culture shock. I never thought that I would have to survive this hard. Anger and loneliness began to grow inside of me. I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm dying inside for having nothing and for losing all I used to do back then. No more waterfalls, no more clean celestial sky to stargaze on, no more forest. I was depressed for months, to be honest. And seemingly, nobody completely understand this. I don't blame the place nor anyone around me, but I just can't stand on the loneliness back then. Perhaps it is my fault to expose my true feelings, for hoping too much that someone would listen to me.

Every night, I lay down on my bed and imagine a beautiful city where nature can still embrace every living beings inside of it. I will wait for this to become a reality. It is the future of every city, and everyday brings us to the future.

I'm starting to see better days. Despite my culture shock, I learn about the true meaning of life, and the true meaning of friendship. I learn to be strong, gaining wisdom from each day I spent in the city. I began to discover the adventure from the pain and happiness I receive in such wild place.

My soul, however, does not belong to the city even tough I am present here. My heart will find its home again, I believe.  And I sense my pathway to the true home is coming closer to me. I just have to be patient and accomplish my duty in the city, learning and learning everyday, enjoy it because someday, I will not be in such place anymore.

Nature, I'll be back.

I was raised by my parents, and nature.

And now, this is what I've become. Thanks to nature.

I SMELL SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY :D

Someone's turning 16 today! And this 'someone' is very special so I decided to make a post for her ;) Yes, she's kind. Yes, she's insane. Yes, she's fun. Yes, she's my smart-a*s best junior high friend, Imel! :D


So happy birthday, Imel! I guess I don't have to say 'God Bless You' because He already did! You turned 16, but don't ever forget the good times we have along with Amy and Pricil when you were 14 and 15 years old.

We really should meet up someday with that other 2 crazy beings and continue our 'The Sims' family life again! Miss ya :* Best wishes, have a blast cuz you deserve it!

Anyways, I know you're not going to read this post for months because you're in your school's dorm where internet is not allowed, but you deserve something special so I decided to write something about you anyway. And if you're wondering why I write in English, I'm sorry. It's because of my school's influence and the influence from our favorite 'oybid*s' LOL.

"malam doa"

our second home, the waterfall

our fckn favorite game, swing fight! :")

the four musketeers :D

Love, love, hugs!
Kezia, your good and artistic and kind and smart and crazy friend! LOL kidding :*

MESSAGE FOR A DEAR FRIEND

Years pass and we've been friends for years. Through every moment, we've learned that distance does not exist in a true friendship. There are a sense of arts everywhere, including relationships. Friendship, is a sense of arts from the heart that even the blind can enjoy.

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You see, my friend, I learn from you that friendship cannot be crushed by anything but one's egoism and selfishness. You cannot see the rope of friendship we've tied by your eyes, but you can feel its presence with your heart.

You taught me that;

Friendship becomes pure when there is no jealousy or fear, when it comes from one's deepest heart.

Friendship does not see physical conditions.

Friendship is immortal. It is one of the Universe's component to shape life.

Friendship is not subjective. It is objective, universal, understandable for everyone.

In dark days, friendship is our candle. In such bright moments, friendship is the rainbow that surrounds us all.

Friendship could travel through time and space, because friendship itself is a light that is visible through heart.

Thank you for the wonderful years you gave me, my dear friend. Even if you are here with me, I can sense your presence of nurturing love. And I'm sure, you can see me there despite the distance that separate us.

Namaste!~

LUNA; THE HEART OF THE EARTH

Every month, this elegant 'pearl' appears on our sky as its silver light painted the dark sky. It changes phase as days fly, and by the middle of the month we can all enjoy the beauty of the full moon. A romantic and serene atmosphere vibrates throughout the night, touching every beings and every dreams.

We all know that the moon is a celestial object to give light for the dark night, like the stars, and sun in the morning. Yet, have you ever wondered deeply about the moon?

Here's some interesting informations.

Moon's gravity affects the earth's water. As we can see, the wave's level increases during the full moon.
Human's body is 70% water.
Ever feel that you're being calmer during the full moon? Or feel like your gaining more stamina?
Indeed. It's because of the moon's gravity.


Serenity during the full moon? The moon is the earth's reflection of unconditional love. Its light shines through the broken hearts, heal the mourning ones, reflects a beautiful rainbow through every tears. It is a special gift to earth beings from the Universe.

Also, have you ever wondered why horror stories and ghost tales often told during the full moon? it's because the moon itself has its own dark side, just like every components of the Universe, including ourselves. This dark side of the moon is often use by the 'evil spirits' to wonder around, and it is also a great time to use 'black magics'.

Namaste!~

THE SCHOOL SYSTEM AND A REBELLIOUS STUDENT

It's funny to remember how rebellious I was back then during Junior High. And actually, I do not have any regrets or guiltiness at all. I'm proud of myself for this.

I skipped class very often because I was wasting my time learning about something that I will not use in the future. I drew on the toilet's wall as a personal protest to school's lack-of-creativity system; teachers were mad at me because I always sketch something while they explained the subjects in such boring way. I would sleep in class due to lack of sleep time because there were too many homeworks given, not caring about teachers' complains to me.

I was like the 'black bandit' for the teachers of my old school. Only a few of them understand the reasons for my deeds; and the rest of them were just give me that 'bad' looks. I heard from a teacher who was in my side that, the other teachers believed I would have lower grades than any other students due to the behavior. I went home frustrated, having no idea about why teachers hated me that much. I believe, drawing in class or skipping class are not a wrong behavior. I actually have the right to do that. Teachers often said, if we don't want to learn, we should get out from the class. So I did. But then, I was driving them nuts.

But then, what happened?

I ranked 5 in class, got many As or Bs on the report card even tho I never really care about scores and I'm not a diligent person, and my kindest teacher asked me if I can draw something special for her. As my tribute for her kindness and loving nature, I drew as perfect as possible, and the next day after I gave the drawing, she opened her folder and show the drawing I made for her in front of the teachers. "Look! The 'Black Bandit' made me this! I guess you have no reason to called her the 'Black Bandit' anymore."

I smiled every time I remembered those dark yet fun days. Because of my rebellious behaviors, teachers always recognized me very well each time I came back to school as an alumni. And yet, I did not change. I am still a rebellious soul, skipping class at 2nd semester during 10th grade, and I will keep being a rebel until the system changes. And yes, until they allow me to draw in class.

SELF-AWARENESS; YOU ARE MORE THAN WHAT YOU THINK

Ever compare yourself with others? Have you ever feel the feeling of unfairness lurk inside your heart as you take a look at the mirror, see yourself, have a disgusted look on the face, and imagine someone that is more beautiful than you are, and you feel ashamed of your body?

Well, I did.

I am not a beautiful girl. I am not elegant, I am not slim, I am not pretty, my hair is not silky. To be honest, the only body part that I like is my pair of eyes, because it's brown and deep. I often blamed my physical appearance as something that makes people don't accept me. I often wish that I was born beautiful with silky hair and slim body so people would adore me more.

I've been struggling over this feeling from time to time, until my inner-self told me about this;

That this body is NOT my true self. It's only a tool to perform a roll in this world. My true self is immortal, powerful, aware and bright... its ability is unlimited. It cannot be crush by anything.

We're only using this body for a while. The physical body is mortal, and yet we will use different bodies from time to time.

We always thought that we ARE this body, this body is our true self, our true characteristics, our soul. That is why, we often feel unsatisfied with what we have in our physical body. We sometimes feel that it's unfair to have such imperfect body while others could feel confident with their beautifully-created body and face. Well here's the truth; there is no such thing as imperfection and ugliness.


You see, our God is perfect. He creates such beautiful panoramas around us. Take another look at the flowers. If the flowers were created perfectly, so did you. So did all of us.

The body is a tool to perform our missions, purpose of life. Like a puppet performance, the puppet master MUST adore the doll he/she would use to ensoul his/her part in the show. If the puppet master does not like his/her puppet, he/she would not have such successful show. He/she will forever suffer in dissatisfaction.

Love yourself. You are more than what you think. You are bigger than what you've thought. You're not only a walking human body that you might dislike for its appearance, it is not the true you. You are a soul, a beautiful soul, that currently takes a roll of this huge performance we held together. Yet, you need a tool to perform perfectly, which is your body, your physical appearance. Your performance would be nothing if you do not adore your special tool.

Be aware with your true self. Listen to your inner voice, let it guide you. Hold your heart and let the love spread on your soul.

http://www.gemmastone.org/

Namaste!~

THE ART OF DIFFERENCES

Why there should be differences in the world? Why there should be Asians, black and white? Why there should be night and morning, light and darkness?

Take a look at a beautiful garden! It contains flowers in different colors. They are different in species and each has its own uniqueness. But when they all unite, they will spark in such harmonious beauty!

A rainbow contains 7 different colors that makes it look beautiful when painted on the sky :)

If a rainbow and a garden look beautiful in differences, so do humans. You see, when all people in the world look the same, and if there's no night or no morning, imagine how monotonic this world would be. There will be no harmony, no excitement... A 'Yin' without 'Yang' would be nothing...

Whoever you are and whatever race you have, please love yourself for being 'the one and only' and one of the components of the earth's 'art of differences' :D

Namaste!~

SOMETHING FOR EVERYBODY; POWERFUL MESSAGE FOR THE LONELY AND SAD ONES

Some desperate people came to me lately, either in real life or social network, asking for help. And I completely understand how it feels to be in their position, since I was there. The feeling of lost, lonely, frustrated... combine in one and block the eyes from the truth about 'who you are'.

What's 'who you are'? This wonderful and lovely video will explain it to you. Activation of the third eye chakra is also included.



Because we are all one, just like pieces of bread from a single loaf. Namaste~

COUNT DOWN TO THE 4TH DIMENSION; CELEBRATING THE EARTH'S REVOLUTION

Open the door, we've walked trough time as the earth spins in the universe. It's a brand new day, a brand new world. Our world is crawling to the dimension of peace and love; the 4th Dimension.

We're reaching the era we've all been waiting for in all these 13.000 years. Our earth is new to the universe, unlike all those distant worlds out there that already existed in million years. We're catching up with the others, standing up from tragedies and now, holding our hands together to step on this golden era. Imagine a life without racism and screams of terror. Now isn't that exciting?

As we're standing here to celebrate the revolution of our world, each of us takes a role to make a difference. Some choose to become artists who paint their dreams of a better earth, some choose to hum the universe's message, some choose to be the rebels that will break the earth's old systems.

It's not going to be easy to heal the earth and to raise it to the higher illumination of light, yet it is not impossible. It takes time, it takes togetherness. We have to remember that we have each other and we are all standing on the same world.

It is such an amazing fact that many people already are conscious about this revolution, and are aware of what they should do for help. I found countless wonderful people that are healers, nature whisperers, artists, and energetic love providers who are ready to make beautiful changes.

You, every single of you, are invited to celebrate this revolution, to take part and to carve your dreams of the better earth along with any other people who are also a part of you. So smile and hold our hands, enjoy the adventure!

Namaste~

Basa-Basi 2 (WARNING: NOT FOR WARAS PEOPLE)

Gila gila gila gila gila. Kenapa gue menyebutkan kata ini sebanyak lima kali? Karena gue suka angka 5 #abaikan #sumpahnggakpenting. Kenapa gue menggunakan kata "Gila"? Ya karena kata itu menggambarkan apa yang terjadi pada hari ini.

Emang ya, hidup itu enak banget kalo kita jadi orang gila. Bukan gila sih, kalo gue bilang gue gila, gue takut didatengin suster-suster yang membawa ambulans RSJ malem-malem gini. Mungkin lebih tepatnya freak. Ya, saya mengakui bahwa saya adalah seorang freak. Lo pernah ga sih loncat-loncat sendiri di tempat umum? Sumpah itu asik. It feels good, men (and women). Hanya saja, hal ini sangat tidak mengasikkan bagi teman atau keluarga yang berada di sekitar anda.

Kegilaan ini muncul di pagi hari, pas pelajaran BI. Gue dan seorang kawan duduk sampingan pas gurunya lagi nyetel video wisata di kelas. Videonya tentang pertambangan sulfur di daerah pegunungan. Kami nge-dub orang-orang yang nongol di video itu. Gara-gara itu kami heboh sendiri di kelas yang sangat tenang. Ada salah satu scene dimana beberapa orang membawa sekeranjang lempingan berwarna kuning. Karena sotoy, gue langsung nge-dub "kerupuuuuuukk... kerupuuuuukkk...". Gue heran, kenapa lempingan itu nggak habis-habis dan nggak ada yang memakannya. Dan setelah diamati, ternyata itu kepingan sulfur. Cacat.

Di ending video, ada gambar abstrak yang merupakan layout dari TV Show tadi. Temen gue tiba-tiba berseru "ih itu kok kayak hantu?". Di ujung kanan gambar itu ada bercak putih yang rupanya mirip rupa kuntilanak. Persis di bagian belakangnya, ada 'curls' warna hitam yang persis seperti rambut. Seorang teman kami langsung memperhatikan dan berpendapat bahwa gambar itu justru mirip kambing. Spontan, semua mata langsung tertuju pada gambar itu. Sesosok hantu disamakan dengan seekor kambing. Miris.

Pas jam gathering, kelompok yang saat itu sedang bertugas mengadakan Bible Trivia. Kebetulan kelompok gue mempunyai anak yang super rajin baca alkitab, jadi kami menyerahkan semuanya ke tangan Tuhan dan tangan anak ini. Berandalkan alkitab yang sudah robek, ternyata kelompok kami menang! horeeee! Semua orang di ruangan itu menduga bahwa hadiah dari game ini pasti coklat b*ngb*ng. apa nggak, permen y*pi. Gue berpikir, ya lumayan lah, daripada dapet gelas dengan dot dengan gambar singa (sumpah, gue pernah dapet hadiah ini pas menang lomba menulis surat tingkat SMP). Nah. ternyataaaaa... yang kami dapatkan adalah selembar kertas warna orange bertuliskan:

1ST PLACE

MIRACLE FROM GOD

Jam terakhir pun kami gunakan untuk mengerjakan tugas mengenai biography pas pelajaran EL. Kami disuruh menuliskan "the 'must-have criteria' of the biography you read". saya dan rekan kerja saya pun menuliskan hal-hal dibawah ini:
1. Name
2. Date of Birth
3. Place of Birth
4. Family
5. Early Life
6. Career
7. The journey
8. Marriage
9. Achievement
10. Death

Jawaban di nomor 10 adalah kengerian abadi.

Task 2. Kami disuruh memilih satu tokoh dan membuat pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang ingin kami sampaikan padanya. Sekitar 15 menit saya habiskan untuk memilih seorang tokoh bersama rekan saya. Awalnya George Washington. Lalu Pak Praise (bukan nama yang sebenarnya). Kemudian Cleopatra. Dan jadinya The Rev. Abstrak sekali pilihan kami.

Nah, untuk sesuai keputusan, di bawah ini adalah pertanyaan-pertanyaan hasil diskusi kami;

1. What makes you love the drum so much?
2. Who are your inspiration?
3. If songs could change the world, what song would you play to make a difference? Why?
4. What would you teach to your children? Would you teach them how to play drum?
5. How did you die?
Kesannya memang sangat jahat, tapi semua fans A7X di sekolah sepertinya muak dengan kisah bahwa The Rev meninggal karena kepeleset di genteng pas sedang berperan sebagai Santa Claus. Masih mending car crash, atau natural death. Kepeleset di genteng terkesan kurang elit.

Setelah pulang sekolah, gue dan sesama 'creepy metal gurl' (note untuk teman gue: gue geli sendiri nulis ini sumpah) nongkrong sejenak di kantin sebelum bergegas ke mobil antar-jemput masing-masing. Gue ditantang teman gue buat ngegodain seorang 'cute boy' (idola para gadis angkatan kami di sekolah) yang saat itu sedang bermain kartu bersama kawan-kawannya. Dengan pede, gue mendekati cowo ini bersama teman gue, tapi pas udah deket gue malah ngakak dan begonya, kepeleset. Garut abis.

Jadi itulah journey saya untuk hari ini. Pulang-pulang gue langsung molor 2 jam dan diem sepanjang malam karena capek ngakak. Tapi gapapa, ngakak itu berkat untuk orang freak. Muahahaha.

XOXO~

Basa-Basi

Hai, gue mau galau-galau ria disini dulu ya hahahah. Langsung to the point saja. Jadi gini, gue itu orang yang suka berpikir dalam-dalam. Ga pernah-pernahnya gue ngeblank, bahkan dalam waktu sedetik. Dan kebanyakan yang gue pikirkan itu topik yang dalam, seperti sistem yang berlaku di dunia, kenapa ini harus begini, kenapa harus begitu, dsb. Gue sendiri ga ngerti kenapa gue cenderung memikirkan topik-topik seperti itu, mungkin emang pikiran gue diciptakan untuk itu. Kadang dalam waktu bersamaan, topik yang gue pikirkan bisa lebih dari satu sekaligus, dan ini membuat otak gue capek. Kadang gue pengen mikirin yang ringan-ringan aja, atau ga mikir sama sekali, tapi rasanya susah sekali. Dan gue pengen menyalurkan isi-isi pikiran yang sepertinya sudah terlalu penuh ini tapi gatau sama siapa. Ya gue udah ngobrol tentang apa-apa yang gue pikirkan sama seseorang, tapi entah kenapa rasanya masih belom cukup. Gue pengen ngobrol sama orang banyak yang bijak dan yang dewasa, yang punya waktu untuk mendengarkan. Tapi susah nemuin orang seperti itu. Dan kadang, kalo dapet orang buat dijadiin temen curhat sekalipun, gue gatau ngomongnya mesti gimana. Dan akhirnya, pikiran-pikiran ini menumpuk dan gue jadi kewelahan sendiri.

Satu hal lagi, gue jadi merasa kurang sreg sama orang-orang tanpa alasan apapun. Gue merasa ada yang kurang di kehidupan. Gue udah 16 tahun tinggal disini dan merasa kurang puas tanpa alasan yang jelas, padahal gue udah punya segalanya. Keluarga, punya. Teman, punya. Hidup yang sehat, punya. Gue ga perlu berjuang untuk makan ataupun beli baju. Apa coba yang kurang?

Belakangan gue juga sering ngerasa getir. Melihat orang-orang yang kurang beruntung, yang berkeliaran di bawah teriknya matahari, juga berita-berita mengenai perang dan penyiksaan, membuat gue beranggapan bahwa hidup di bumi itu melelahkan, padahal semestinya ga melelahkan seperti itu. Kadang nggak enak juga menjadi orang yang terlalu berempati, hal kecil yang disandang orang lain bisa gue pikirkan dalam jangka waktu yang panjang.

Dan setelah gue pikirkan lagi tadi, mungkin rasa 'kurang sreg' dan 'kehilangan gairah hidup' ini terbentuk dari pengalaman hidup di bumi, pengalaman menjalani sistem-sistemnya. Gue sangat mendambakan kehidupan yang damai, tanpa sistem 'kasta' dan tanpa kebrutalan, dan gue percaya semua orang juga mendambakan hal itu. Kapan dunia bisa seperti itu? entahlah. Saat ini, manusia masih beranggapan bahwa apa-apa yang tersedia di dunia itu terbatas, bahkan kebahagiaan itu terbatas. Maka dari itu, mereka melakukan apa saja untuk mendapatkan segala sesuatu yang tersedia di bumi untuk kelangsungan hidup, bahkan dengan cara yang brutal sekalipun. Padahal Tuhan itu Maha Adil, tentu saja yang disediakan Dia itu cukup untuk semua orang, selama manusia rela saling berbagi. (nah, ini salah satu hasil pemikiran gue yang dalam itu)

Ah, gue masih pengen basa-basi disini, tapi gue gatau nyusun kalimatnya gimana.

Oh iya, gue ingin memberikan hadiah untuk kalian semua yang berupa suatu kalimat. Simple, tapi jika didalami maknanya bersama-sama, kalimat ini bisa mengubah segala sesuatu yang berlaku di dunia.

God is in you and God is in me. Namaste!