FOLLOWING THE LIFE OF DAVID: HIS LOVE FOR SNOW WHITE

Everyone knows this classic Disney princess, and some know that she is the very first. When Snow White came to cinemas as the first ever full length color movie, David was, in fact, impressed and amused by every details of the animation since he himself wished to be a cartoonist or animator someday, tho that never happened sadly (but al least I still have his drawing skills). 

Snow White is David's first and last fictional crush. Illustrated books and vintage pictures might've inspired him in a way, but the beautiful animation and story of Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs inspired him in many ways. Without future technologies we have today, making full length color animation with realistic design of the protagonist must be very something to him. 

When I watched this movie some time ago, I couldn't help but feel this weird deja vu thing inside my head. Part of me tried to convince me that I've watched this long time ago. Not just years ago when I was still a young girl, but way before that. Thinking that it came out in the late 30s, I realized that David must've seen it himself. 

Despite the nightmares and bad memories from David when he was doing his job during the WW2, I'm grateful that he left me this memory. I'm also thankful for Disney. I don't know what David and I would do without him. :)

 

THE BIGGEST CRISIS IN OUR WORLD

The biggest crisis we're facing now is humanity. Wars everywhere, sacrificing the life of many, starving children, students bullying one and another, doctors abandoning their patients, governments and police forces working over money instead of justice. We all have egos, but deep inside we have a heart that is yearning to see all men living in peace and harmony. 

I can't possibly change the entire world, but I wish I could at least change the lives around me. I believe that there are others out there having the same vision, and if we work together, the future where happiness surrounds every single being, lies in front of us. Despite medias showing violence and injustice, I believe that there's still kindness. After all, when there's darkness, there's light. I want to live my life with kindness. And I want everyone to do so, too. 

Have faith, make it happen too :) 

Namaste~

FOLLOWING THE LIFE OF DAVID

I realized that my memories of being a WW2 soldier who committed suicide 71 years ago still bothers me. It is the clearest memory of my past life I've seen so far. I thought I've seen enough, and yet today, after seeing a video of war, the flashbacks came back again. I'm starting to wonder if there's something David hasn't told me. 

My biggest question is, however, if David had something in his mind when he was about to die, how can his spirit reincarnated as me? As far as I know, when a spirit is trapped in emotional pain, it will roam in this world until it can finally find peace. 

Or maybe David has found his peace, and he wants me to know what exactly bothers him, and how he finally found serenity in that dusty atmosphere and the sound of nonstop gunshots. 

I'm going to discover my past life even further and keep this blog updated with my journey. 

THE NORMAL INDIGO GIRL

Maybe some of you have know that I've been labelled as an indigo... or spiritually gifted child. It used to be part of my pride until I learned a hard lesson eventually and decided not to be so obvious about it, trying to live my life as a normal girl. But I've been so used to it I forgot all about what I can do with my abilities. So in the end I feel like I've forgotten who I truly am.

The hard lesson I'm talking about is that the world is a place for everyone, including indigos, but obstacles are meant to be here and sometimes they make it seems like you have to be someone you not to be able to survive. I realized that knowledge of spirits is not something everyone can accept, at least in this era, but when one is ready to learn, one is close to see how wonderful the mystery of life is. Indigos can access the knowledge of spirits because it is their gift, and everyone is able to learn too, thus indigos can be their guide. Through my journey of this current life, I've met people who are cynical about my abilities, one of few reasons why I decided to 'hide' my true self in a completely normal girl personality. But some are grateful to have been guided by me. 

Lately in my nights I've been thinking about this. I enjoy being normal girl who is struggling in college , complaining about being broke, and enjoying some fun with my friends both old and new, but at the same time, I miss being my true self. I miss using my ability to astral project and experience the realms that cannot be seen with physical eyes, sensing emotional pain in others and trying my best to heal it, and communicate with the spirits. 

But then I realized that being indigo doesn't make me less or more than normal. I'm still human in any ways. 

Maybe being normal and indigo at the same time is the only way to become my true self. Let the society decide whether to accept me as one of them or not, but I want to just be myself because that's one of the ways to value the experience of living. 

I believe that everyone is normal AND gifted. Some are good at science, some at music, some at socializing. I'm a normal girl with spiritual talents. 

Namaste.

"EVERYONE'S BEAUTIFUL IN THEIR OWN WAY."

Sounds like a lame title, huh? 

But anyway, I think we all have to agree that it IS true. There's always a beautiful side on everyone that one can be proud of. 

I learned about this after losing my confidence  due to my body figure. Although I've loose some significant amount of weight over the past few years I'm still overweight and I always feel jealous of girls with perfect body figure. I especially feel bad when I look at this beautiful cloth or dress and wear one, but it doesn't even look good on me. Been thinking that maybe that is the reason why I seldom even care about fashion because most of them don't suit me well. 

But then I stopped and said to myself, "why hate my body when it is the only thing I can use to live life?"

So I looked at the mirror and observe. My eyes were the first thing I looked at because even though they are slightly squinty, they have visible lids and long lashes everyone has been complimenting about. I especially LOVE my eye colors. The brown color is visible and yes, I've been receiving compliments about it too, some people even thought that I was wearing contact lenses :)

And for my second favorite facial feature: eyebrows! They are naturally thick and shaped and they look perfect on my face. Not to mention they are also my farewell party makeup artist's favorite, haha.

The third one will be my natural blush. They're probably there because I spent most of my lifetime in highland. I hope they'd stay there permanently :)

Also, my skin color is the one Indonesian girls have been dreaming to have (despite some rough red spots on the back of arms due to my skin condition but it's nothing serious). Asian white and not pale, just the right color tone. Still, there are some benefits of having tan skin and for this reason I want girls out there to feel confident of their skin. No need to inject anything to make your skin look whiter and hurt yourself in the end, you might as well travel to the west and learn why you should be grateful ;)

And last but not least, my height. 

I'm considered tall here compared to average asian girls' heights (thanks to my dad's genetic). At some days I wish I could grow taller but oh well, I'm already grateful for being this tall. 

So, if you ever lose your confidence, stop thinking about what kind of body you wanted to be and start observing yourself. Maybe there's something about you that your favorite models have been wishing to have ;)

WOMEN ARE NOTHING BUT SEX OBJECT?

Seeing and listening to a music video that involves nude women, I learn that it was actually made to degrade females. For some people they were just expressing fun and ‘playful’ atmosphere of the song. On the other hand, I see it as nothing more but sexual harassment. This is proved by the singer’s statement that "What a pleasure it is to degrade a woman". (It makes me wonder what his mother and grandmother would say.)

This video, however, is just a small case compared to what is happening to our sisters in some regions of the Middle East and everywhere else. Their rights to speak up are taken, and they have to obey traditions that would bring their fate to nonstop abuses from a very young age.

I always hate the idea that women are nothing but sex objects. I also grew up embracing some memories related to this. I get to see people treating women as if they are a disgrace to these people’s lives. We can all see that this idea is spreading all over the society. Everyday there are rapes and sexual harassments, literally everywhere.

Seeing from realistic perspective, I have very little power to prevent more sexual assaults. But I know there’s always a way. After learning this the hard way, my dream become a successful female scientist grows stronger than ever.

What does becoming a successful female scientist has anything to do with preventing sexual assaults? By being a successful scientist, I can show the world that women are more than just sex objects. Their forces are essential to balance our life in society, and they also have the power to make a difference. They can contribute in building welfare and bringing justice to all human beings. 

And when they follow their true dreams, The Universe dances with them in grace.

SAJAK UNTUK SEORANG SAHABAT LAMA

Aksara menjadi wakil dari coretan di cakrawala hampa perantara jarak kita. Dengan linangan air mata dan tawa, kububuh rangkaian warna pada tiap goresan yang menyiratkan kisah demi kisah. Ini, kupersembahkan kenangan kita pada tiap helai kuasku. Aku tak mau berjumpa dengan lupa.