God is building new ways to create a new world. God is the entity of infinity, there is no limit inside of him. The universe came from him. Therefore, if you believe in God and the universe, you believe in infinity and dimensions.
WHAT I FEEL
I've never talked about what it feels like to be one of those people who are able to see and hear almost everything and breath more than others do spiritually, nor do I care about it. I knew from the beginning that no matter what I do or what I feel, I will always stay this way. I can never escape from what I was born to do.
I do not see the potentials I have as a curse, though. But they do affect the days in my world. Things that are strange for others are nothing new to me. They are a part of my daily life.
My world is pretty much teen-ish regarding to my physical age. I do what other people my age do. I read comics, I listen to grunge and heavy metal and jazz, I fell in love with Batman, I collect everything that is blue, I have pets, I tweet. But my atmosphere is different. While others color their atmosphere with romance and dreams, I filled mine with pictures and messages and memories that only I can understand. This make me feel envy of other teenagers sometimes, or make me feel lonesome. While some people wanted to know what it's like to be able to see the world beyond ours, I wanted to live normally. I wish I could put some attention to fashion or to a guy that I may like, but I never had time on those things. My mind is never empty enough to provide some spaces.
Being a crystalline child is like living in two places at once. Two places that are very different. One is filled with people, the society, and passion. Another is a place of pure power, a place where all of the answers lie within. Some entities from this place are like people but they are not 'people', some are the resonance of nature that carries messages, some are like the mythical creatures that you often see in fairy tales. Unlike the first place, the only language that is used in this strange world that is hidden from the eyes of our people is telepathy. There is no vocabularies and alphabets.
EXPERIENCE
This is actually my destiny. I am a natural-born interdimensionalist. An elder crystalline friend of mine told me that I was supposed to be cursed and abnormal, but I have the ability to protect myself. He said this without even knowing my datas before birth. Yes, the doctors diagnose me with abnormalities beforehand. But then here I am. I have the natural ability to heal since birth, but that does not make my life any easier.
I agree that most crystalline children have rough times dealing with their life. Mine as well. Beside all of the toys I used to play with, all of those sweet and classic 90s cartoons and TV shows, popular songs I enjoyed, my childhood is full of pain. I have to witness a broken relationship between a couple that was staying with my family, and friends of my family. My parents were working and I was staying with them. They were also using me as an anger-reliever. Whenever my aunt went to the internet kiosk to chat with some guys that didn't even look gentle, when she got home she blamed everything to me. I also have to deal with several things that are very traumatic to me, turning me into an angry child. I was bullied at school, I wasn't safe at home.
Everything seemed to grow better when I reached junior high. But I learn that the world is rough, therefore I became what the world had taught me to be. Few teachers like or appreciated me. But that didn't stopped me from making troubles. Funny thing though, in the end I was one of the students with highest academical score.
Junior high life is influential for me. Beside being a "menace" it was also the time when I got my other eye opened. But my abilities were out of control, and some of them were not yet activated. My rough past planted a big chunk of apathy inside of me. I could feel what others feel or saw what they worry about, but I didn't give a damn. For being afraid to feel hurt again, all I care about was fulfilling my own pleasure.
When I entered high school, I was enlighten... in a rough way. It seems like easy ways do not work for those with a heart almost as hard as a rock. I came with arrogance that created a big hole in front of my way. I did not understand people, therefore no one understood me. I was shocked so bad for moving into a city where everything is loud and tough. I was surrounded with dark vibes that affect everything. However, I have to be grateful. From this bad experience, I had my empath back.
I knew that God were lending helps through metaphors that caught my attention during the hard times I had to dealt with. This was the time when I was introduced to the 'place' I mentioned before. I began to see a complex world laying beneath and even uniting with ours. I was shaped through dreams and people that are strange enough to understand me. I can finally express what I've kept for a long time, express the experiences I got and learn their meanings.
I was actually aware of the presence of my guardians since I was about 13 years old, but I began to build a strong relationship with them when I graduate junior high. I learn and develop my healing ability from Aaron, one of my guardian. I learn clairvoyance from Emilet. I also learn through pictures in my dreams that often appear as metaphors; when I wake up I have to think about it the entire day to get to know the hidden meanings.
I told them and I prayed to God that I need a physical help because I'm tired of feeling lonely. I need people that appear in the 3rd dimensional world, people that are 'real' for others as well. It was not long until one of my good friend introduced me to a man at school. Even at our first meeting, I know what he's like. He is pretty much the older and weirder and wiser version of me, in the entity of a man that is.
The point is that God never sleeps. He listens and understands. God took the main role of my strange world.
RELATIONSHIP WITH OTHER CRYSTALLINE PEOPLE
The brother/sisterhood among crystalline people is strong enough to cover the illusion of distance and time. I met people of my kind everywhere, that are also aware of the truth, and they also aware of my presence. A baby girl whose age was not older than 2 was staring at me with a deep stare from the shoulder of her mother. She didn't say anything, of course, but when I saw her eyes I can feel her 'message' to me. When I saw her, I wasn't in a stable and positive state. She asked me if there's anything wrong, without even saying anything. She was very young, but she's aware of the 'connection' between mankind, and she was able to use it.
I met a woman at a bus stop. It was a short meeting, but when we met for a while she stared at me with a gentle and loving stare. I saw a strange glowing dot of light on her forehead, and her face seemed familiar somehow. Some times later, I saw a woman in old Javanese dress in my dream. She was the woman I saw at the bus stop! And through that dream we communicate somehow, but I cannot find words to 'translate' our conversations because we did not speak in human language.
I met a friend who told me that I was supposed to born with abnormalities long before I saw him physically. He went to a place near my hometown, and it was a remote area. I was there with him and he saw me, but I wasn't in a physical form. A year later, I noticed a book at the bookstore, and saw a picture of a man who seemed familiar. I managed to found his facebook account and I told him that he seemed familiar. And so we finally got a chance to see each other in person and he told me the truth. From then, whenever I need him my astral body would come to him even under unconsciousness.
Yesterday, when I fell asleep at the car on my way back home from school, I dream of being in the school's corridor. There's no one but me and a guy wearing metallica tees with tan skin and dark hair. He came to me and said "We are a tool." "Everyone's a tool," I replied. "I know that, but our role is very essential. Our presence will change everything." "Well it doesn't mean that we are superior than others." "I didn't say that." He smiled jokingly, and went into a room. I followed him, and saw faces with deep eyes. Their age ranges and they came from different countries. I had a strong feeling that they are one of a kind. About this guy, I have a strong feeling that I will see him in person, one day in the future.
Those are a few of the events that are essential to my world. My purpose of writing this is to relief myself from stacking stories, and to inspire other crystalline children to share their own unique stories so that they won't feel burdened :)
If you believe in God and the Universe, you believe in infinity and dimensions.
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