2013, A NEW BEGINNING

First of all, happy new year everyone! Such a great time to discover new things and find some new adventure. Of course, 2012 has been a blessing for giving me so many opportunities, memories, lessons and all, and I'm very grateful for that. And I'm sincerely sure that 2013 will bring new turning points to me as well, knowing that this year I will graduate from high school and move on to college, starting a new routine independently (meaning that I will no longer live under the supervision of my parents) in a new environment.

Since few days before 2013, I've been feeling unusual... in a good way that I still can't describe. I'm not sure if this is the impact of enjoying a vacation in Jogjakarta to discover the truth about my ancestors and my own past life or this has something to do with December 21, but yeah let's just get along with it. Nowadays, I feel the strong urge to change myself, spiritually and physically, for the sake of peace. It's weird to know that I'm not really into technologies anymore, even when I'm using my laptop it's not for something that is entertaining for most (and for my old self). Most of the time I'd only use it to feed myself with some new-age knowledge or music that which I find interesting, or to chat with my friends. I even abandon my ipod that is full of songs I used to listen to, using most of my time to just observe my surroundings, read stuff or sit in silence for some reason I can't explain. I've become more patient and spiritually sensitive either; whenever I see or hear things that trigger my anger I'd automatically find a way to calm myself and do it, like breathing slowly and deeply, or just think about the other side of them. Images and sounds in my dream become clearer, and I feel more aware of my surrounding. These are strange for a person like me. I wonder if anyone else feel this way too, hmm...

I'm also trying to love everyone equally, and let me tell you something; this is NOT easy! To love everyone unconditionally is to let go of the ego that creates lust. We've been slaved by our own ego and we've blocked ourselves from better possibilities of making the world a better place. I think that the time for change is now. 

Anyway, speaking about new year, almost everyone is making new resolutions for the entire year. I too have some resolutions and I've promised myself to (truly) make them so; and the most important of all is to work hard so that I can be accepted in one of the greatest and well-known universities and focusing on its faculty of medicine. I ended up choosing Medicine because I want to help improving the health of those who live in remote areas (since I also grew up in a remote yet blessed place). And to be honest, before I made my decision I had strange dreams that involved hospitals and medical equipments which I consider as an omen later. 

the second one is to improve my health by having a healthy diet. Don't worry, I'm not going to abuse myself by avoiding food for the entire day and such. In fact, I was obese as a kid and it affected my health acutely; I suffered from an acute anemia and it eventually triggered me to avoid unhealthy lifestyle and start looking after my health. I loose so many weights as a result and thankfully I'm far from obesity now. But I do aware that I'm still overweight and I need to improve my physical body for a better health by consuming more nutritious goodies and start working out again. The spiritual mind cannot work effectively without a healthy physical body ;)

Well anyway, this is a good movie to start the year, especially to those who's been longing to find answers about the mystery of life, God, and the truth about themselves. It's pretty long, but worth to watch. I know most of you have been feeling the same way, and well... the time is now. There are dozens of videos and blogs that mainly discuss the awakening and there are so many interesting people out there that would change your point of view about life, so enjoy your adventure ;)

That's all from me for today. Happy birthday, year! And Namaste, everyone :)