"A RUSTLE IN THE WIND REMINDS US A FAIRY IS NEAR."

My hometown is surrounded by beautiful mountains and forests. So beautiful, I never get bored of the view, even though I've been there for 15 years. In fact, my apartment is located in front of a forest, and since I was a kid I am always aware that there's something mysterious yet magical about that place. The curiosity made me collect such courage to go out at midnight all alone in the dark (okay, this is dangerous actually... but gladly I was fine). I remember I didn't see anything that time, but I felt peace deep inside my heart. 

As I grew up, I became more sensitive and I started to develop an ability to 'see' and 'hear' things more specifically; some are frightening and some are wonderful. When I figured out that I actually have a natural ability to astral project, I 'went out' of my body to travel the mysterious mountains and forests that are untouchable to us in physical reality. I was surprised to see that the forest does not look like it used to... It looked much more magical and beautiful; everything seemed glittery and shimmering, and each tree had little lights on it like a christmas tree. The droplets of  dew on the grass, flowers and leafs reflected these lights like diamonds. It was a real-life fairytale world!

I noticed something, or someone, sitting on a branch of a tree. The creature seemed to notice me staring at it, as it flew and approached me. When it came closer I could see its details... It has wings, it wears a green gown, its body is surrounded by bright aura, and it is very friendly! Yup, no doubt. I just saw a fairy!

Soon after the fairy 'introduced' itself to me, I saw all other fairies flying through trees. Each of them looked unique as I came to a thought that their appearance must've represented their particular specialty.  Then, small and short creatures came out from under the wild flowers and leafs. I didn't know what they were, but now I'm sure that they are little people. It makes sense because they are meant to protect the forest, just like fairies themselves. 

The fairies took me to the top of the mountain and brought me to a small water spring as they bathed. I joined them and felt something really unique from the water; since my spiritual sensory does not work like the physical sensory, I find it hard to explain what it felt like. I'll simply describe it as a sense of  abundance and grounding. They also carried me to huge roots of a big tree, a place for them to sing mantras. I was really happy when I heard them singing... and all I can say is that it was a beautiful music to hear. 

Hmm, I wish I could describe my experience in details, but like I said before, spiritual sensory does not work in a way that is familiar to most of us. But I want to write down what I learned from these wonderful beings.

I asked them why they are invisible to humans. They told me that the old folks used to interact and work together with them (and that's why we found many fairytales back then), up until the idea of materialism was introduced and people began to forget the real understanding of life. We are too focused on a better living through gaining materialistic wealth. This pushes humans to destroy anything... including the home of fairies and little people; the nurturing forests. The spiritual connection between us humans and these creatures began to fade and that's why we can't see them today. They told me that only those who are pure-hearted and believe in them can see them. 

The fairies introduced me to an idea that whenever men destroy a forest, a fairy 'dies', and its soul vibrates a tune that would eventually create disaster for men. This suits well with what we know as 'the law of karma, and I actually think this sounds fair enough.

Now that I live in the city, far away from my hometown, I rarely visit my playful and tiny friends. This saddens me, knowing that I'm also too focused on pressures now. Still, it's not an excuse to not spending some time to listen to the fairies. They are magical beings with such magical life and mind, and they'll tell you messages about life.

If you want to see the fairies and work with them, you have to be sure that you are ready for a great adventure and you already accept yourself for being who you truly are. The main key is to love yourself unconditionally and also love others unconditionally. Anger, hatred, jealousy and anything typical blinded your third eye from interacting with spiritual beings. And by the time you're sure that you're ready, tell yourself that you want to see them, and you will. It'll take time, but this happens for a reason. They want you to be patient, because we are used to instant things nowadays.

Faeries, come take me out of this dull world,

For I would ride with you upon the wind,Run on the top of the dishevelled tide,And dance upon the mountains like a flame.~William Butler Yeats, "The Land of Heart's Desire," 1894

Here are some soothing fairy music. Namaste

2013, A NEW BEGINNING

First of all, happy new year everyone! Such a great time to discover new things and find some new adventure. Of course, 2012 has been a blessing for giving me so many opportunities, memories, lessons and all, and I'm very grateful for that. And I'm sincerely sure that 2013 will bring new turning points to me as well, knowing that this year I will graduate from high school and move on to college, starting a new routine independently (meaning that I will no longer live under the supervision of my parents) in a new environment.

Since few days before 2013, I've been feeling unusual... in a good way that I still can't describe. I'm not sure if this is the impact of enjoying a vacation in Jogjakarta to discover the truth about my ancestors and my own past life or this has something to do with December 21, but yeah let's just get along with it. Nowadays, I feel the strong urge to change myself, spiritually and physically, for the sake of peace. It's weird to know that I'm not really into technologies anymore, even when I'm using my laptop it's not for something that is entertaining for most (and for my old self). Most of the time I'd only use it to feed myself with some new-age knowledge or music that which I find interesting, or to chat with my friends. I even abandon my ipod that is full of songs I used to listen to, using most of my time to just observe my surroundings, read stuff or sit in silence for some reason I can't explain. I've become more patient and spiritually sensitive either; whenever I see or hear things that trigger my anger I'd automatically find a way to calm myself and do it, like breathing slowly and deeply, or just think about the other side of them. Images and sounds in my dream become clearer, and I feel more aware of my surrounding. These are strange for a person like me. I wonder if anyone else feel this way too, hmm...

I'm also trying to love everyone equally, and let me tell you something; this is NOT easy! To love everyone unconditionally is to let go of the ego that creates lust. We've been slaved by our own ego and we've blocked ourselves from better possibilities of making the world a better place. I think that the time for change is now. 

Anyway, speaking about new year, almost everyone is making new resolutions for the entire year. I too have some resolutions and I've promised myself to (truly) make them so; and the most important of all is to work hard so that I can be accepted in one of the greatest and well-known universities and focusing on its faculty of medicine. I ended up choosing Medicine because I want to help improving the health of those who live in remote areas (since I also grew up in a remote yet blessed place). And to be honest, before I made my decision I had strange dreams that involved hospitals and medical equipments which I consider as an omen later. 

the second one is to improve my health by having a healthy diet. Don't worry, I'm not going to abuse myself by avoiding food for the entire day and such. In fact, I was obese as a kid and it affected my health acutely; I suffered from an acute anemia and it eventually triggered me to avoid unhealthy lifestyle and start looking after my health. I loose so many weights as a result and thankfully I'm far from obesity now. But I do aware that I'm still overweight and I need to improve my physical body for a better health by consuming more nutritious goodies and start working out again. The spiritual mind cannot work effectively without a healthy physical body ;)

Well anyway, this is a good movie to start the year, especially to those who's been longing to find answers about the mystery of life, God, and the truth about themselves. It's pretty long, but worth to watch. I know most of you have been feeling the same way, and well... the time is now. There are dozens of videos and blogs that mainly discuss the awakening and there are so many interesting people out there that would change your point of view about life, so enjoy your adventure ;)

That's all from me for today. Happy birthday, year! And Namaste, everyone :)

A DOODLE'S LIFE

Ever wonder what it's like to be a doodle? What it's like to live in a papery world where each of your body parts is created with the tip of a pencil, or a pen, or a marker?

Well, one thing for sure; in a doodle's life, anything is possible!

If you're a doodle, you can:

Munch a giant cookie (without having to worry about getting fat)

Explore the universe (or your stargazing book, to be precise) 

Party hard with these cute little dolls from your pen pals,

Be the queen of the world,

Climb your favorite crystal,

Be your favorite hero's sidekick,

Share your evil plan with your giant human twin sister,

And roast your marshmallow on your Christmas light! 

However, being a doodle isn't always easy...

Taking a bath is too risky,

Your dog is no longer your best friend,

You may get stuck in a jar,

And you can't draw anymore because all available markers are too big for you :(

Oh well, happy holiday, everyone! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :)

PARAGRAF PENUH TANYA

Jadi, bila dia jauh lebih tua dariku dan kita tidak memiliki hubungan darah sama sekali, aku tidak bisa bersahabat dengannya? Apakah aneh bila aku bersahabat dengan yang jauh lebih muda, atau yang jauh lebih tua, ketimbang dengan mereka yang seumuran denganku? Jadi aku harus menanggung dosa apabila aku memiliki teman yang berbeda status sosialnya, berbeda umurnya, berbeda latar belakangnya, dan berbeda pula kepercayaannya? Jadi aku akan berdosa bila aku berteman dengan  seorang perokok, pemabok, penghisap ganja, PSK? Bukankah adanya kejahatan di dunia ini merupakan tanggung jawab kita semua sebagai manusia yang satu? Bukankah Tuhan ingin kita menjadi teman bagi siapa saja, mencintai siapa saja tanpa pamrih, memeluk siapa saja dengan kasih tanpa peduli betapa dekilnya orang yang akan kita peluk atau berapa banyak kejahatan yang telah ia perbuat? Bukankah semua manusia sama derajatnya, atau setara, di mata Pencipta dan di mata hukum yang berlaku di alam semesta ini? Siapakah kita sehingga kita berhak menciptakan hukum kita sendiri di dunia yang sesungguhnya bukan milik kita? Atau apa aku yang salah? Apa aku yang menyimpang hukum dan moral, dan berdosa karena telah menciptakan konsepku sendiri? Apakah berpendapat dan bertanya akan kebenaran yang sesungguhnya merupakan tindakan yang arogan? Siapakah yang berhak menentukan mana yang benar dan yang salah, menyebarkan ajarannya, dan kemudian menurunkannya kepada generasi-generasi berikut, yakni mereka yang meneruskan kelangsungan hidup di alam semesta? Bisakah aku bertanya kepadaNya langsung dan memintaNya untuk memberikanku tanda? Apa aku harus bungkam dalam kesabaran, menanti jawaban hingga akhir hayat, mendekap liang kubur dengan rasa penasaran yang tergolek pasrah di dalam gundukan tanah? 

Ah, sudah malam. Barangkali aku akan melanjutkan paragraf ini dalam tidurku, dalam mimpiku. 

RETURNING HOME TO NATURE

Aside from all the dreams I want to pursue, I think I have one special dream that I have forgotten for long. Looking at the days where technology takes over our modern world, along with other factors, I think this dream is quite impossible to achieve. But as crazy as it sounds, I believe there will be a way to make it come true, someday.

To live life dependently with nature, going with its vibrations and tunes, has been something I always wanted to do. In fact, there are people who are still doing this despite the world's evolution and movement. They feed themselves with fruits and meats that are available in the forest or the beach, drink the clear and pure water from springs, living in harmony through all seasons, reading time and directions by the help of the sun and constellations, and most importantly, embracing the soul of nature by breathing with it, not killing it. 

I personally believe that all existing problems we found in the society came from economics; the need of money to buy this and that. And to make money means one has to work, so then there are job vacancies available from all over the place. But job vacancies can never be enough for billions of people in the world, hence the unemployments, or cases where a man was working for a job that he does not desire. Today's life is dependent on economics. But then again, our economy is completely dependent on natural sources, while nature does not need the help of economics to grow and nurture. I guess I don't need to explain this any further... this has been a common issue among us. 

I believe I'm not the only one who's been longing to live in a complete tune with nature, where we don't need to feel pressure from financial problems, where we don't have to worry about looks or needs, where we don't have to see homeless people wandering around while starving, because nature is a home for everyone. 

I, like many others, may have a dream to achieve all of my goals; to continue my education to the higher level, to learn as much as possible, to intern, to be successful, to become a doctor, to sincerely do my duty, and so on. But above all, I belong to this earth, this loving and caring nature. 

A MATTER OF AGE

I am a 17-year-old girl, and for most girls at this age, especially in my country, seventeen is a special number of age. Most girls celebrate their sweet seventeen with once-in-a-lifetime party, setting their dress codes and birthday theme, inviting their beloved ones and their favorite celebrities (if possible), ordering the most wonderful dream birthday cake, etc etc etc. Also, seventeen is a 'legal age' in here, meaning that seventeen-year-old teens have the right to drive and also to vote. The funny thing is I never even wish to celebrate my birthday in such way because I didn't find my sweet seventeen birthday special, and I don't have a driver's license yet because I don't want to. I'm not saying that sweet seventeen celebration is a bad thing, in fact I always accept my friends' birthday party invitation whenever I can. As for the driver's license, well for those who don't know, my city's streets are rough and wild so anything can happen there! 

When I had my sweet seventeen birthday, the first thing that came into my mind as I start the day is "Why do I have to grow up this quickly?" and so I went throughout the day like nothing happened despite all of the beautiful birthday greetings from people. Aside from many frustrating challenges, I love being a teen, and although seventeen is also a young age I can't deny the fact that I'm getting closer to 20s! I know this sounds silly considering that I'm still far from that age, but as I grow older I have to make some important decisions that would change my life in many ways, of course. This makes me think about something: I'd even like to be a kid again if possible. I kinda miss playing with my lego collections, running Putt-Putt or Pajama Sam on my 90s computer, blowing bubbles on the third floor of my old apartment, molding my playdoh, rolling myself downhill and coming home with dirts all over my body (mom was annoyed by this),  playing hide and seek with friends, creating imaginary friends along with their fairytale-like world with my childhood best buddy, and so on. Ah, memories...

Anyway, most would guess the reasons behind all of this so easily. First of all, you can be as crazy as possible without people judging you! Second, you can have and choose so many exciting opportunities that may change your life. Thirdly, you don't have to think about so many responsibilities and such like most adults do! Also, you can either be careless on dramas, or sitting there enjoying them (or be a part of them, although I do not recommend that). 

But no matter how hard my heart desires to stay being adolescent, who am I to stop the process of growing? This is how nature works, right? And everyone, no matter how rich or important or strong or smart they are, couldn't deny this fact. We all just have to face it, and enjoy everything that comes in our way. 

Come to think of it, it would be kinda creepy if there are no adults in our world when everyone just wanted to stay young forever. Just think about it. Uncontrollable madness everywhere. 

DUTY

I received some strange dreams for 3 nights in a row. Although they were harmless dreams (to me), I felt a very strong feelings during the sessions, feelings that I can't describe in words. Again, those dreams felt so realistic.

In the first dream, I was at a party (I guess, since I saw many people in my group of age) when a punk guy came by. He was wearing a black jacket and looked very thin and unhealthy. He told people that he heard voices in his head, yet no one at the party believed him. He went to the rooftop as the other guys began to mock him from downstairs. I followed the guy, standing right next to him. I wasn't conscious during the dream so what I did was out of control. I began to shout to those guys, telling them to stop mocking him while calling them names. The guy sat on the edge of the rooftop, and before I could see what happens next, I woke up.

In the second dream, I saw a huge and beautiful house that was located on a hill. From the look of it, it was clear that the owner of this house must be very wealthy. There were even more than 4 securities in front of it, and the pillars of the house were carved magnificently. This time I was half conscious, so I climbed my way up and consciously entered the house. 

Yet what I saw inside was out of my expectation. Instead of seeing a luxurious lifestyle of the family who lived there, I saw nothing but thick black smoke covering the entire corner of the beautifully decorated living room. I also felt a strong tension from all over the place. I think I saw the mother of this family, sitting on the sofa with a man, but neither of them looked happy and healthy. 

I searched for the 'source' of the black smoke when I found a girly bed room in the left side of the house. It was the kind of dream room I always wanted when I was little. The walls were covered with childish pastel color, and the bed was royal bed-like. A very young girl, seemingly 8 years old, was sitting in front of her table, but her appearance was a contrast to her own princess-like room. She was, instead, very creepy; thin, pale, and had black marks under her eyes as she gazed to the wall with no expression.

The third dream was less creepy, but still vivid. I received a letter from someone who proclaimed herself as a 24-year-old Korean woman. When I touched the letter, I saw a blurry image of the woman; she had a short, straight and black hair and marks under her eyes, and she also looked pale. 

The message was written in Bahasa and the points were clear; she said that if God is real, it is such an irony that evil is still lurking among the innocence. What happened to her took her beliefs away, and now she's standing on confusion.

At the end of the letter, she told me she was just coming out of a store to buy some groceries innocently like any other women when 3 men kidnapped and raped her. Nevertheless she still wished me a safe and happy life.

I did not make a direct contact with her spirit in my dream, but the letter was so clear and vivid, and the message brought such intense depression from this woman.

My intuition told me many times that these people ARE real, and they came to my dreams not by coincidence. By having visits for 3 nights in a row, I assumed that now it is the time for me to make my first move to help those in need with my (still developing) ability. This is also my second experience on channeling Archangel Michael to help me 'clean' these cases.

The appearance of the first punk guy made it clear that he is a drug addict. The effects, indeed, are 'voices' inside his head, unhealthy and skinny body, empty eyes, and depression (by going on the rooftop, making that suicidal pose). 

I sent a message to him, telepathically, to listen to my voice instead. The words surprised me because they just popped out of my mind like it wasn't me who said it, and now I can't remember a thing. All I can remember is I told him that he is a part of the universe, and the universe resonates nurturing love in every direction. I told him to vibrate this great power by give everyone a smile and tell them how beautiful love can be, and the universe will reflect what he does back to him (law of karma).

When I imagined him in my mind, I saw a flashback of how he was treated as a child. He was ignored by his mother and left abandoned, receiving abuse that caused him to distrust everyone as he became a drug addict. Black aura surrounds his body as a side effect of the psychological agony and drug he's been consuming. It was so thick and deep I still can't clean it on my own, so I asked the powerful Archangel Michael to clean it and look after him. Together, Archangel Michael and I surrounded him with thick pink loving and protective aura instead.



I went back to the big luxurious house consciously through astral projection, still accompanied by Archangel Michael and my own guardian, Aaron. The black smoke was still there. Archangel Michael and Aaron told me that the black smoke is a curse, a side effect from receiving instant wealth (in my place, this is already common. To gain instant wealth, people could go on mystical mountains and ask the spirits on the mountain to make them rich without having to make efforts, but they'll have to pay for the consequence in return; by letting their sons and daughters receive curses). From there I met a spirit whom I believe as a guardian of the young girl. She told me she was the one who contacted me in the first place by sending me to this place, and informed me that my vision of the girl is a sign of her dying soul, although she still looked fine in reality. She searched for my help since I'm capable of neutralizing a curse (as well as creating one) and yet I owed my neutralizing energy.

The angels guarded me to the house's wareroom, a place where the black smoke came from. I found two big black spots facing each other. One of the spots was placed on the walls, the other one was under a mirror.

Archangel Michael and Aaron explained to me that the wall is a strategic place for the wealth-and-curse-energy to flow in every direction, since the wall is standing right in the middle of the house. The mirror, on the other hand, help reflects the energy, making it more intense and powerful. The most powerful energy from the spots, however, flows directly to the girl's room, hence the strong and intense negativity.

With the help of the angels, together we created a luminous white light (the opposite energy of this black smoke) to neutralize the curse. The powerful light broke the spots easily while it vibrated the pure nurturing energy to every corner of the house. The black smoke disappeared in instance, and it was a beautiful sight to see!


I astral projected my way to the Korean woman just to find out that she is already reaching her 2 months of pregnancy as a result of the rape. She was sleeping when I came by, and this is where met her guardian, who told me that she lived with her mother, and there's nothing she can do to help this woman relief herself from the deep trauma. Yet the baby was dying from the traumatic depressions. When I sense her baby, I learned that the baby is a boy with great potential to become a miracle child, and he could be a true guardian for his mother at the times where she needs to heal.

All of the information is true; another dark dirty aura surrounded the woman so intensely. This can be dangerous to both woman and her baby. Again with the help of the powerful angels, we created an impulse to absorb the negativity and break it, drawing white protective aura and pink loving light around her instead. Archangel Michael asked me to project indigo and green light, my personal healing color hue, from her baby, to help clean the leftover negativity.


These activities are still exhausting enough for me because they drain my energy, thus I still have much to learn. Nevertheless I'm happy to help anyway I can, and now I know that whenever I need help I can always channel the angels as they will assist me along the way :)

Namaste.