Monday, March 11, 2013

THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY

Soft and warm blanket,


Huggable teddy bears,



Lots and lots of colors,


Grandma's cakes,


Vintage collections,



My dog,



The rain,


The bed,



Rainbow,



Chocolatey treats,



Frozen yogurt,



Falling stars,



Anything blue,


Indonesian food,



Cheese,


Watermelon for a hot day,


Ladybug,



Butterfly,



Wearing someone else's sweater,



Nature,



Ancient sites,



Good books,



The Sims 3,



Fairytales,



Turtles,



Sushi,



Homemade foods,



Action fig. and graphic novel collections,



Lovely body splash,



My affirmation tree,



My artwork as a kid,



Color balloons,



Cute stickers,



Aromatherapy candle,



Astronomy,



Google Doodle,



etc, etc, etc. :)

Friday, February 22, 2013

...I'LL JUST LEAVE IT BLANK.

High school life is about to end in a few months and I'm reaching the point where I'm getting sick of seeing any of those school books. I've been sleepless, wandering around at school and telling people that "I need more motivation", and yet they support me any way they can. Seeing this, I feel like I shouldn't complain so much since it's gonna be useless and while others are struggling as well, they still care about their classmates. 

Also, I've been comparing my own progress with other's academic achievement and underestimating myself as the result. Hmm, this is what I don't like about myself. It's just that I've been affected by judgments lately I forgot about how extraordinary people can be. Sometimes you look average but when you go somewhere else you may shine brighter. (*plays "Shine Bright Like a Diamond"*...... well never mind) But seriously, it's true. I know some kids who seemed average at that time but now they're moving on to a successful life and people who used to know them would go like "wow that kid's a ITB/UGM student now (two of the best universities in my country)". I myself feel average in here because so far I haven't got any big achievements, but then again regretting things is useless and I should just move on and keep fighting instead of struggling. I know that one day I'll fulfill my life goals and be extraordinary myself. 

Speaking about school, one thing I like about grade 12 is my science class. Full of crazy kids who are welcomed by affectionate and fun teachers. Everyday is full of laughter in here; all of those absurd gossips, inner jokes, random sketches on our notebook, lame songs we used to sing out loud together (in an annoying way)... but when it comes to learning we  solve everything together and we help each other. Each member in our class has his/her own remarkable and unique personality so when one of us is absent things would feel different. Man, I'll miss them. 

Well that's all for tonight, folks!

Friday, February 8, 2013

FINAL PAPER PRESENTATION

What a hectic week, I'm so glad today is Friday. I'm pretty exhausted now since I just did my final paper presentation yesterday. It is one of the requirements to graduate from my high school and it is also considered as one of the biggest events for twelfth graders. Although we are free to choose the presentation date, I'd rather do the presentation now just so I can eliminate this high school 'burden' from my mind.

So I made the presentation very neatly and it was probably the best presentation I've ever made (I usually suck at making presentation). I keep it neat, simple, but 'eye-friendly'. I spent the entire day  at school practicing with friends who also signed themselves to do the presentation that day. Anyway, these are some of my slides: 





And the most exciting part is when one of the juries couldn't attend the presentation and my 11th grade biology teacher replaced her! I was lucky to have two friendly juries, who are also among everyone's list of favorite teachers. I couldn't stop jumping on the corridor when I heard the news :)) 

My final paper needs several revisions, but over all the juries loved my topic and presentation. They said it is "very useful", with a smile on their face when saying so. "Very useful" is one of the best compliments you can have for your final paper, really :D

When I went back to class, everyone cheered for me in the middle of their work and asked about the presentation. Some simple stuffs, but I really appreciate their support. So happy to see that sight. Science and Math 2, you're the best! Love you guys! :) 

In conclusion, the presentation was successful, and yesterday was the best day of 2013 (so far)! Thank God for this moment <3

It's already midnight and I'm getting very sleepy. Well, hope I can write more in here later :)

Sunday, February 3, 2013

FEBRUARY, 2013.

Wow, I haven't write for quite a long time. I kinda miss ranting in here and I wish I could stay longer to write a long post, but I'm actually quite busy working on my final paper while I'm getting tired of this boring academic routine and yet my eyes feel heavy already. I put too many pressures on myself lately, resulting in sleeplessness and nutrition-less (is that even a word?), and some mood swings too. Nevertheless, these rough weeks have been a lesson for me to chill and just let things flow.

Anyway, dreams come and go, and now I feel like I'm actually more alive in my dreams, when I rest my physical entity. And among some nightmares and some beautiful dreams, I've illustrated one of my most peaceful and beautiful dreams during my first tryout.... so yeah, I called it 'Heart of the Innocent'. Hmm, I think I should make a poem for it too. 


Namaste, loved ones!

Thursday, January 3, 2013

"A RUSTLE IN THE WIND REMINDS US A FAIRY IS NEAR."


My hometown is surrounded by beautiful mountains and forests. So beautiful, I never get bored of the view, even though I've been there for 15 years. In fact, my apartment is located in front of a forest, and since I was a kid I am always aware that there's something mysterious yet magical about that place. The curiosity made me collect such courage to go out at midnight all alone in the dark (okay, this is dangerous actually... but gladly I was fine). I remember I didn't see anything that time, but I felt peace deep inside my heart. 

As I grew up, I became more sensitive and I started to develop an ability to 'see' and 'hear' things more specifically; some are frightening and some are wonderful. When I figured out that I actually have a natural ability to astral project, I 'went out' of my body to travel the mysterious mountains and forests that are untouchable to us in physical reality. I was surprised to see that the forest does not look like it used to... It looked much more magical and beautiful; everything seemed glittery and shimmering, and each tree had little lights on it like a christmas tree. The droplets of  dew on the grass, flowers and leafs reflected these lights like diamonds. It was a real-life fairytale world!

I noticed something, or someone, sitting on a branch of a tree. The creature seemed to notice me staring at it, as it flew and approached me. When it came closer I could see its details... It has wings, it wears a green gown, its body is surrounded by bright aura, and it is very friendly! Yup, no doubt. I just saw a fairy!

Soon after the fairy 'introduced' itself to me, I saw all other fairies flying through trees. Each of them looked unique as I came to a thought that their appearance must've represented their particular specialty.  Then, small and short creatures came out from under the wild flowers and leafs. I didn't know what they were, but now I'm sure that they are little people. It makes sense because they are meant to protect the forest, just like fairies themselves. 

The fairies took me to the top of the mountain and brought me to a small water spring as they bathed. I joined them and felt something really unique from the water; since my spiritual sensory does not work like the physical sensory, I find it hard to explain what it felt like. I'll simply describe it as a sense of  abundance and grounding. They also carried me to huge roots of a big tree, a place for them to sing mantras. I was really happy when I heard them singing... and all I can say is that it was a beautiful music to hear. 

Hmm, I wish I could describe my experience in details, but like I said before, spiritual sensory does not work in a way that is familiar to most of us. But I want to write down what I learned from these wonderful beings.



I asked them why they are invisible to humans. They told me that the old folks used to interact and work together with them (and that's why we found many fairytales back then), up until the idea of materialism was introduced and people began to forget the real understanding of life. We are too focused on a better living through gaining materialistic wealth. This pushes humans to destroy anything... including the home of fairies and little people; the nurturing forests. The spiritual connection between us humans and these creatures began to fade and that's why we can't see them today. They told me that only those who are pure-hearted and believe in them can see them. 

The fairies introduced me to an idea that whenever men destroy a forest, a fairy 'dies', and its soul vibrates a tune that would eventually create disaster for men. This suits well with what we know as 'the law of karma, and I actually think this sounds fair enough.


Now that I live in the city, far away from my hometown, I rarely visit my playful and tiny friends. This saddens me, knowing that I'm also too focused on pressures now. Still, it's not an excuse to not spending some time to listen to the fairies. They are magical beings with such magical life and mind, and they'll tell you messages about life.

If you want to see the fairies and work with them, you have to be sure that you are ready for a great adventure and you already accept yourself for being who you truly are. The main key is to love yourself unconditionally and also love others unconditionally. Anger, hatred, jealousy and anything typical blinded your third eye from interacting with spiritual beings. And by the time you're sure that you're ready, tell yourself that you want to see them, and you will. It'll take time, but this happens for a reason. They want you to be patient, because we are used to instant things nowadays.

Faeries, come take me out of this dull world,
For I would ride with you upon the wind,Run on the top of the dishevelled tide,And dance upon the mountains like a flame.~William Butler Yeats, "The Land of Heart's Desire," 1894

Here are some soothing fairy music. Namaste

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

2013, A NEW BEGINNING

First of all, happy new year everyone! Such a great time to discover new things and find some new adventure. Of course, 2012 has been a blessing for giving me so many opportunities, memories, lessons and all, and I'm very grateful for that. And I'm sincerely sure that 2013 will bring new turning points to me as well, knowing that this year I will graduate from high school and move on to college, starting a new routine independently (meaning that I will no longer live under the supervision of my parents) in a new environment.

Since few days before 2013, I've been feeling unusual... in a good way that I still can't describe. I'm not sure if this is the impact of enjoying a vacation in Jogjakarta to discover the truth about my ancestors and my own past life or this has something to do with December 21, but yeah let's just get along with it. Nowadays, I feel the strong urge to change myself, spiritually and physically, for the sake of peace. It's weird to know that I'm not really into technologies anymore, even when I'm using my laptop it's not for something that is entertaining for most (and for my old self). Most of the time I'd only use it to feed myself with some new-age knowledge or music that which I find interesting, or to chat with my friends. I even abandon my ipod that is full of songs I used to listen to, using most of my time to just observe my surroundings, read stuff or sit in silence for some reason I can't explain. I've become more patient and spiritually sensitive either; whenever I see or hear things that trigger my anger I'd automatically find a way to calm myself and do it, like breathing slowly and deeply, or just think about the other side of them. Images and sounds in my dream become clearer, and I feel more aware of my surrounding. These are strange for a person like me. I wonder if anyone else feel this way too, hmm...

I'm also trying to love everyone equally, and let me tell you something; this is NOT easy! To love everyone unconditionally is to let go of the ego that creates lust. We've been slaved by our own ego and we've blocked ourselves from better possibilities of making the world a better place. I think that the time for change is now. 

Anyway, speaking about new year, almost everyone is making new resolutions for the entire year. I too have some resolutions and I've promised myself to (truly) make them so; and the most important of all is to work hard so that I can be accepted in one of the greatest and well-known universities and focusing on its faculty of medicine. I ended up choosing Medicine because I want to help improving the health of those who live in remote areas (since I also grew up in a remote yet blessed place). And to be honest, before I made my decision I had strange dreams that involved hospitals and medical equipments which I consider as an omen later. 

the second one is to improve my health by having a healthy diet. Don't worry, I'm not going to abuse myself by avoiding food for the entire day and such. In fact, I was obese as a kid and it affected my health acutely; I suffered from an acute anemia and it eventually triggered me to avoid unhealthy lifestyle and start looking after my health. I loose so many weights as a result and thankfully I'm far from obesity now. But I do aware that I'm still overweight and I need to improve my physical body for a better health by consuming more nutritious goodies and start working out again. The spiritual mind cannot work effectively without a healthy physical body ;)

Well anyway, this is a good movie to start the year, especially to those who's been longing to find answers about the mystery of life, God, and the truth about themselves. It's pretty long, but worth to watch. I know most of you have been feeling the same way, and well... the time is now. There are dozens of videos and blogs that mainly discuss the awakening and there are so many interesting people out there that would change your point of view about life, so enjoy your adventure ;)

That's all from me for today. Happy birthday, year! And Namaste, everyone :)

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

A DOODLE'S LIFE



Ever wonder what it's like to be a doodle? What it's like to live in a papery world where each of your body parts is created with the tip of a pencil, or a pen, or a marker?

Well, one thing for sure; in a doodle's life, anything is possible!

If you're a doodle, you can:


Munch a giant cookie (without having to worry about getting fat)


Explore the universe (or your stargazing book, to be precise) 


Party hard with these cute little dolls from your pen pals,


Be the queen of the world,


Climb your favorite crystal,


Be your favorite hero's sidekick,


Share your evil plan with your giant human twin sister,


And roast your marshmallow on your Christmas light! 



However, being a doodle isn't always easy...




Taking a bath is too risky,



Your dog is no longer your best friend,


You may get stuck in a jar,


And you can't draw anymore because all available markers are too big for you :(


Oh well, happy holiday, everyone! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year :)