ENLIGHTENED

After all these weeks I am finally cured.

Allow me to explain what happened. I had nightmares for 4 nights in a row. All of them are about me being chased by a woman who was trying to kill me. And there are all so realistic. I have trouble sleeping ever since. Turns out that psychological therapy doesn't help, and a guy I know offered a help. He told me that I am an interdimensional indigo, which possess the ability to vibrates alpha frequency, while other people can only vibrate beta and theta. When you can vibrate alpha frequency, you become extra sensitive to your surroundings or to yourself. You have a lot of energy to use the alpha frequency for healing, astral project, or read auras. Unfortunately for some interdimensionals, they have some trouble controlling their powers. Including me. So all this time i've been unconsciously astral projecting to a place I do not want to visit. But I just constantly putting myself there. Astral body cannot be hurt, but if I keep being chased by the woman with knife in her hand and she succeed in stabbing me, I can feel the effect physically. Or if this keep happening, I may not return to my body. This drove me to panic. The guy who told me this offer  a solution which is knotty and I am too young to fulfill its terms and conditions.

Ever since I know what really happened I just can't sleep that well. I kept waking up in the middle of the night so I won't astral project. Therefore my physical body grows weaker and weaker, and I really can't do anything. As I got unhealthier, I possess negativity. I became cranky and I was tortured by memories from my past that I do not want to memorize from the beginning. I asked my indigo friends from all over the world and wow, they care a lot about me even if we never see each other directly! They gave me tricks to stop astral projecting to that place, and it works but I was still astral projecting and it was tiring for my physical plane.

And there came the point where I became completely hopeless and mad. I cannot make any direct contact to my guardian anymore because the negativity grows weaker and weaker, so I snapped Aaron in heart (I wrote about him long time ago, he is my guardian and my guru at the same time). But then again, his unconditional love is wonderfully infinite. He sent someone who came at the exact time. Actually I've been looking for him all week but he doesn't wanted to help because he told me I am independent enough to help myself. But I was really mad and I really can't do anything so he gave up and did what he's good at. He is a reiki healer, and he said my aura was really infected and it needs to be healed. He noticed that my root chakra has been overactive while I rarely use my spiritual energy lately, and that's why my astral body uses the energy to travel. He controlled my root chakra, converting the activation to half. It was as simple as that all along!

Okay this may sound weird and some of you may think of this line in your head: "wtf did i just read?" I know, I understand. You can believe it or not. This is not a common issue but the message from this story may be helpful for other interdimensional out there:

1. You have the authority to scream for help. Don't let your problems stab you and don't let yourself lose the battle.

2. Young interdimentionals seek help from the elder ones. There are many of them, which means that there are many ways and many concepts to gain spirituality you can choose. Pick one that suits you best, or if you're powerful enough find your own way.

3. Cases like this happen to every interdimensionals, and since we are surrounded by non-interdimensionals we may feel lonely most of the time. But we are actually connected to each other and you are never alone.

4. Once you receive a help, you must help others.

That is all for now, Namaste!
Kezia~

BLESSED

I don't know if I can survive this insane insomnia any longer, but I'm truly thankful for my friends, who are willing to understand the knotty condition I'm having right now and trying to help in any ways. All the supports I have from my dear indigo friends as well as my awesome school friends touched me.

Well we've only been in the first month of year 2012 and this is my new challenge. And I must say, this one is the roughest challenge of all. About the challenge itself, I'll explain it later. It's really long and complicated.

I'm glad I'm save until today. Thank you for everyone who's giving supports to me! Namaste <3
Kezia~

YESTERDAY CHANGED EVERYTHING.

Yesterday changed everything. My point of view towards life and death, and also the almost invisible line that shows us the difference between blessing and curse. What I used to keep in mind is that there's nothing to worry about death; it happens to everyone, and there is no such thing as eternal suffering. I used to think that I can control myself because I'm powerful enough to do that, I used to think I am always safe. Life is a gift, indeed, yet it's not as simple as adding sugar to a cup of tea. Life, singular... is a journey taken by a single individual. Everyone's life is different. Every individual is different. Everyone's fate is different. Each individual's life cycle have different pattern. Back to the present reality, some were born gifted, some were born with a curse, some were born normal. What makes everyone's life look the same is that, they're all fragile. Every single thing we do and every single potential we have for a living is sinister. I could die tomorrow or next week just by resting my physical plane, an activity I always do each night. Every day is a battle. When you survive a day, the day you've passed was a very special gift you suppose to enjoy.

2012 is here!

It's already new year here in Indonesia so HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! Embrace the brand new days and the surprises of this newborn year! Still can't believe that 2011 has end... It was too quick. I can't say that 2011 is my best year but I do have so much fun, ups and downs that gives me lessons to learn.

Speaking of 2012 resolutions, what's yours? I personally haven't think about it, though. I like to be spontaneous, anyway. But perhaps moving on from the past and increase my spirituality should be on my list, since I'm too full of thoughts and confusion during the year 2011. So there will be no NEGATIVE post here. I promise that and this time I really mean it. I'm not saying that feeling down is a bad thing because sometimes when you're in a hole you can think clearly to find a way out. But I shouldn't share any negativity with others.

Okay enough with that. There's one more thing...




LET'S SURVIVE THE 21TH OF DECEMBER.




Haha just kidding, that day we all be laughing under the blue sky and clouds! It will be a wonderful day and I must say, I'm getting excited of year 2012 because of that :)

Well then, Namaste people!
Kezia <3

THE ROOT

Shattered Humanity, Bloody Systems, the Right and Wrong ways, Words of Wisdom from Liars, Government, Cruelty, Brandishing Fake Knowledges, Sly Buffoons, Plunging the Truth, Fight with Laughter, Embody the Fear, Taking Control, Jeopardizing Assault, Bury the Splendorous Oneness, Erasing Freedom from One's Dictionary, Ridden by Pictures of Turmoil Flame, New Diseases called "Angst" and "Agony", Quarrelsome and Grandstanding "Kings", Privileges Given to the Selfish, Constructing Battle, Intervening Public's Mind, Confused Attorneys, Enslavements...

... All started from Egoism.

ON A PAGE OF MY DIARY.

For once I just want to follow another lane where the flowers are ready to grow in every season as they race themselves to the sky without hatred and agony. I want to speak with my heart to the listening wind. I want to reunite with the soft blue velvet and the heart of the earth, which appears on the dark sky with diamonds. I want to embrace the waterfalls of blessings and learn from the Zen trees. I want to run on the aurora bridge, run to the eyes of Taurus, a place I called home, the place where I truly belong. 

http://vi.sualize.us/

KEZIA'S MOODBOOSTERS

To be honest, I always feel like writing here, but I'm out of topic haha! So let's just discuss something light for today's post.

All of us have our own moodbosters as well as I do. We all get so tired and cranky sometimes, aren't we? Well, here are my personal moodboosters that can fix my crankiness most of the time.

MUSIC 

I'm in love with music. Well I guess everyone does. Nowadays, most people listen to Justin Bieber, Taylor Swift, K-Pop, and else. I appreciate the public's different taste in music but all of these just don't fit me. And so my curiosity and hunger in music pushed me to search for old songs that may hypnotized my ears. So here's what I found, some of them tho:









Metal and Grunge always be my favorite genre of music, even tho I listen to classical and jazz or even wiccan music when I get tired of rock loudness. I wish we still have this in today's music :( Also, I've been thinking about learning guitar because the main reason why I like grunge and metal and so, is the sound of their guitar. It's just... epic!

Now, here comes the second moodbooster:

DC UNIVERSE

ta-daa!

This is so addictive! I'm in love with the Justice League, thanks to the influence from my cousin. And my all-time favorite characters are The Question aka Vic Sage (as you can guess), Batman aka Bruce Wayne (everyone's favorite!), The Flash aka Wally West (he's just adorable :P), and Dr. Fate aka Strauss Kent (because both of us are mystical indeed!). I'm willing to collect DC Universe action figures but I only got The Question so far. 

TUMBLR

Found many artistic and inspirational pictures here, posted by lovely people! :) By the way, to go to my tumblr, click here!

NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC

Well, who doesn't love national geographic? it has many amazing pictures along with interesting articles to read!

That's all for now! Cheers and, of course, Namaste! :)

Kezia~