The Four Musketeers

Let's talk about something 'light' today. Well, this is my 3rd week in Papua, and it's rainy around here. I love to sightseeing the scenery through the window of my room and enjoy the peaceful rainfall. Then I feel like seeing myself, along with 3 girls, running around outside and enjoy the rain shower (of course it's not a shower that we take twice a day LOL). I just remember that it's been a year since we moved away from this beloved town and survived on our own in each different cities!

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I spent a wonderful year with these three, best friends of mine during junior high days. The ones that accept my 'abnormality' and are ready to listen to those 'abnormal' stories of mine! 

There's Amy, the silly and easy-going being, a friend of mine since elementary school. She's my childhood friends so she understands me the most. In some cases, she's the most mature from all of us since she's the oldest, so she's the right person for advices. She's very empathic and often shares the same ideas and thoughts as I am. One thing that I will never forget about this person is that she always did her 'dance' when having the need to go to toilet! (I'm sorry for writing this, My XD)

There's Imel, the smartest from all of us She rank 2 in class! Although she's new, she's very talkative and fun to be around with. She always had these crazy ideas dancing inside her head that lead us to an adventure! I always remember the time when I had a crazy plan with her for Amy or Pricil :P (Peace off, both of you!)

There's Pricil, the youngest from all of us, and the most cheerful, happy, and patient. I never see her angry and I'm ashamed of myself for reflecting the opposite back then! One thing memorable about her is that she blushed too easily when embarrassed, it's so easy to tell when things make her feel that way! 

We battled against examination together, we succeed together, we climb that giant rock on a complex together, we jumped into the cold waterfall when raining together, we play 'swing fight' together, we planned to film a parody of Dora the Explorer (which will be Dori the Destroyer LOL, too bad Pricil moved right before we could filmed the movie) together, we had a race on that rocky road barefoot-ly together, oh and when it's we got tired of playing outside, all of us would gathered at my house to play THE SIMS3 :D We created a family, and the members are all of us. We created the Sims version of us and made a huge house with so many facilities! Amy's Sims was running around at the beach all alone at night and met with a funky guy LOL. Imel's Sims was sleeping at someone else's bed, Pricil's Sims was the one who plays at everyone's laptops, and mine was... crying over a new painting at our house -_-

I miss all of them each day. It's sad to know that I cannot rewind the time to enjoy those moments again. I miss the time when we laugh when there was actually nothing to laugh at, or the times when we jumped and take pictures. Thank you for the memorable moments, you three! Nowadays, it would be hard for us to meet each other even if it only takes a day since we live in different cities that are far from each other, and we've been busy with high school activities. But maybe our thoughts and faith would unite us again, who knows? Maybe someday we'll meet again, either in the future or the next cycle of life. 

Well, you know what they say...

Namaste!~

RANDOM POST

Yes, I am here, I am present, with all of you! And I'm grateful that I can finally wrote some words after a few days :) So I'm not that busy anymore and I spend time by doing home spa, relaxation, exercise, concentrating (but I'm still dealing with laziness when doing this LOL), etc. But I'm overdoing these so I'm being too spiritual and forgot about my own physical life, so I have to enjoy the life with healthy earth things either.

So this is my 2nd week here in Papua, going to the 3rd one tho. I don't know why but I miss school already, and most of all, my friends there. And of course, when school starts everyone wants some vacation. This happens all the time LOL. I also passed my old school sometimes, and having some sweet flashbacks. Nowadays, it's hard to hang out with my old friends, since most of them live in different cities which are far away from where I live now. I can't even meet my best friend who lives near my city, and it's been a year since all of us leaving Papua.

And I've been witnessing many changes here, they make me feel sad. Some playgrounds and a gold field are being crushed down, so there are less facilities for people to have fun with. And from what I saw, people are being too stressed up with their jobs. They deserve some fun and good laughter, they deserve some rest from all of those stressing work. After all, being too stressed up isn't healthy! Some parents are criticizing the school's condition, and some students were being bullied. If only I can do something to help, but I have nothing to do with this school and this town now.

Namaste!~

A WARM REGARDS FROM PAPUA, AND BEAUTIFUL DREAMS :)

Good day to you, precious visitors! First of all, I'm sorry for lack of post lately. I'm enjoying a vacation in my hometown which is very very far away from the city, but unfortunately I'm pretty much busy and yet the connection doesn't support my dancing thoughts. And while the internet connection is working pretty well today, maybe I just have to write a little here.

So I've been doing meditations and relaxation, working with energies and developing my abilities, since the place is pretty much supporting for this case. I enjoy walking around the town and entering the forest all by myself, entertaining myself with the sights around, or maybe have a little chat with people around. My sense works much better and I'm feeling very well ever since I step my feet on this small town. I'm happy with those good signs :D 

Anyhows, 2 days ago I was having a beautifully strange dream. I was pretty upset with someone and so I've been hiding an anger all day long, feeling like people doesn't accept me for being myself once again, after having a flashbacks of horrible times I had back then. As I fell asleep and travel deep into the unconscious mind, I saw myself laying on a magnificent hill with a friend. I heard a very soft and tender voice speaking to me, as I saw my friend stare and smiled at me while she said "You have me as a friend." Then, I saw my other friends standing behind her, smiling at me either. In the morning when I woke up, I completely forgot about my anger and I feel a very soothing sense of peace deep inside. It was a very wonderful dream that healed me from those terrible thoughts and feelings, and I'm grateful with it :)

And yesterday I was having a really beautiful dream once again. I was in a place where there are children and adults in my kind and we were smiling to each other, feeling the sense of brotherhood and sisterhood between us all. we were sitting around a huge and beautiful blue fire where we saw reflections of the sad and ill ones. And so we dance, holding each other hands and singing with joy around the beautiful blue flame, creating such powerful energies in which were sent to the sad and ill ones. We hoped that they feel much better when receiving this energy even if it cannot completely heal them from the pain. 

Well I guess that all for now. I'm so happy to be able to share this :) Namaste~

PAST LIFE EXPERIENCES; WRITER'S LIFE STORY

It's always fun to read your own past life! It's like you're watching a series of a movie that came out from your subconscious memory. You are the main actor of each series, and at the same time, the audience! One of the series could be really enjoyable to watch, the other one would be like a thriller movie.

It's actually easy to read your own past life. You don't need a psychic to do that for you! If you witness your own past life flashbacks, it would be really exciting! All you need to do is visualize a place where you  feel very peaceful, for a common example, beach. My friend imagined herself sailing trough the calm waves of the sea to the light were she began to remember some pieces of memories from her past life. I did my past life reading by imagined myself walking to an abstract 5-dimensional door and began to see scenarios behind it. Focus on your main purpose on doing this visualization and remember to trust yourself. Don't be confused with abstract thing that you see, it may be a small part of your past life. Let yourself see the big picture of this piece of memory. If you doubt your own 'sight', the pictures of your past life would faded away.

Here's some of my own interesting past life experiences. I was once an advisory of old Egyptian queen. I'm not sure whether it's Cleopatra or Pharaoh, or maybe another queen of Egypt. But I remember her kindness and how close I was to her. I was a guy in here, young and prestigious. I remember the 'castle' in which I lived along with the queen. In every side of the castle, I saw hierograph carves and some old-styled jug. Yesterday I saw a strange equipment I used to have back then. It was a cone with some hierograph writings on it and there's somekind of an eye in the middle of it. I personally believe that this is a simple equipment to stargaze in this era, even if it's not a telescope but it is helpful to find constellations. I used to stargaze (and this hobby is still sticking to my soul today) and do some sacred traditions under the stars. Still not sure what this tradition is, I'm still revealing this life though.

This one is tragic. I was a widow living alone the city somewhere in the middle-east area. One day, I witnessed a guy stealing something from a seller, and beside this guy, I was the only one who stand there. Everything seemed to happened so fast that suddenly, the seller came to his stand and blame me for stealing one of his expensive item. He then, along with some citizens of the city, brought me to the queen for a punishment. Since the item was considered expensive and rare, I was executed for death. They cutoff my neck before I was allowed to speak the truth. As the result of my grudge, in the next past life, I became a psychopath man, living a 'seemed-to-be' normal life in the morning and wander outside with a very sharp knife at night. I mostly kill woman or young man in a very sadistic way, it was really shocking to saw. Even until today, I still feel faint when walking alone at night. Well it's a good thing that I'm afraid of sharp equipment :P

And I finally reach the state in which I could enjoy a peaceful life in one of the Javanese kingdom, back then in year 600. I was one of the princess of this kingdom. I have a brother and 3 sisters, one of them was younger than me. Surprisingly, my brother is now my senior in school in this present life! My royal family had several warriors and one of them is also my senior in high school (since he believed in past life, I told him about this XD). A friend of mine, a girl from the village in my kingdom, is now holding a role of being a biology teacher at my present school. Sometimes, you got a feeling that you knew this person before even if you really haven't met each other. This strange deja vu like phenomena would have a connection with past life.

My royal home was very traditionalistic yet beautiful. There was a big garden in the middle along with water spring and royal or honored people used to gathered around there drinking teas, singing, or joking around. My father and mother, the king and queen, used to sat in their royal chair in the front of the garden, happily enjoying the moment of the gathering time. In the back of the royal home, there was a mini waterfall and pond, a place where me and my sisters used to play or chilling around in the humid afternoon.

And well, this past life is the most clear and detailed from other past lives I've read. It was around year 1600, in a quiet village of Japan. I lived in a small cottage along with an elder brother and there was a large sakura tree and a small river in the front. There were only two of us since our parents had passed away when we were younger but luckily, our neighbors are kind enough to land a help whether we need one.

During teenage-hood, I used to make traditional toys and dolls for sale and especially for the children of my village, and my brother worked as a farmer just life the other men in this village. I remembered that there used to be a little girl with short hair visiting our cottage to play around or to chat with us. She sometimes bring her younger innocent brother and make fun of him ~.~

This is weird but I don't know why, the scenes I saw in this past life reading were mostly hilarious. I once saw my brother carrying a bucket of water from the river, but since it's very slippery he fell down and got wet. I laugh very hard that I pissed him off, so he eventually pulled me and pushed me into the river. and so we had this playful water fight until both of us got very wet while the weather was cold -.-

Yet from the rest of my past lives (in the earth), this one is my favorite. Even if the scenarios here were simple and I was not living a fancy life like I was in the Javanese kingdom or Egyptian era, I was really happy and enjoying life! Maybe it's because I did something that I really love (making handcrafts) and I own a very caring yet annoying brother (which is now playing a role as one of my elder best guy friend -_-").

Oh, and there was also the time where I seemed to live outside the earth, somewhere upon the stars. I remembered the place very clearly, it was unlike the earth. It is very powerful and magical, and life was so peaceful back then. The houses were beautifully made in a half-large-pearl-like and the grass were in silver color. In the middle of the place, there was a large crystal auditorium where I found many people sitting in silence. I could feel their powerful energies floating around a giant blue and immortal fire. People doesn't communicate physically in here, each of them are very emphatic and telepathic.

Well it's such a pleasure to share this in my blog! I've been waiting to write about this :D These are my past life experiences, what's yours?

Namaste!~

SERENITY AND INNER-SELF

Serenity. the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled. Most of the time occurs when one succeed in expressing himself, when he has the desire and will to reflect his soul to the earth. He who founds his true self and the way he could manage himself to play his role in the earth may receive pure consciousness and confidence to walk further, and to be aware of everything he sees, hears, or feels, and awakened by wisdom. He who recognize his pathway and is confident enough to walk on it no matter what people say or no matter what happens knows that he is as precious as others and existed in a big and wonderful purpose. When one is able to do these, he will receive the big gift that is available for everyone; inner-serenity. Freedom. Exciting experience. 

Please be yourself and enjoy every journey you face as you express your true self and reflect it to every single day you're passing on. You are the only one that can decide your role in this big scenario of life in the earth we're creating together, and you are the only one that can doing it right. Do not worry about the factors that will hurt you because of this, because not even a single thing can bring you down without your permission. Allow your own energy to fulfill your visions and missions, as you will feel serenity of expressing your inner-self enlighten your days and leading you to the adventurous life journey.

Namaste!~

ILUSI DAN KESENGSARAAN

Sengsara. Semua orang di dunia ini tentu pernah mengalaminya. Bahkan tokoh-tokoh besar dan sangat spiritual pun pernah menjalankan fase ini. Tentu saja kesengsaraan itu wajar, karena semua orang pasti pernah mengalaminya.

Tapi, dari manakah kesengsaraan itu berasal? Apakah kesengsaraan itu datang dengan sendirinya, bersatu dengan dunia semenjak bumi ini diciptakan untuk ditempati oleh para manusia? Jika memang Sang Pencipta sangat mengasihi makhluk serupaNya, mengapa Ia menciptakan kesengsaraan untuk kita?

Kesengsaraan tidak datang begitu saja. Tuhan menciptakan manusia serupa dengan Dia, sehingga Ia memberikan kita kemampuan untuk menciptakan, berilusi dan menjadikan ilusi itu sesuatu yang nyata di dunia. Dengan kemampuan ini pun manusia berkreasi, sama seperti Tuhannya berkreasi menciptakan segala sesuatu yang baru tiap harinya di semesta alam. Kemudian, dari hasil kreasi itu, muncullah berbagai emosi, pemahaman, dan pemikiran akan sesuatu. Salah satu emosi yang terciptakan adalah rasa egoisme, rasa ingin mendapatkan segalanya seorang diri, kondisi dimana seseorang mengutamakan dirinya dalam segala hal. Tentu saja dari setiap hasil kreasi itu pasti ada dampak positif ataupun negatifnya, tergantung dengan reaksi alam dan manusia di sekitarnya. Reaksi dari manusia lain ini bisa berupa kesengsaraan, yang merupakan perasaan bahwa segala hak ataupun kepunyaannya telah direnggut oleh orang lain, sehingga ia memiliki pandangan bahwa hidup itu tidak adil. Kesengsaraan dan egoisme ini sendiri adalah wujud dari ilusi yang sudah diciptakan oleh manusia. Namun, kita telah lama berpikir bahwa kesengsaraan itu bukanlah ilusi, karena kesengsaraan itu dapat dirasakan. Telah lama kita berpikir bahwa semua emosi yang kita rasakan dalam hidup adalah sesuatu yang mutlak.

Pernahkah anda belajar dari seorang anak jalanan, ataupun dari tawa seorang korban bencana alam? Mereka tahu bahwa mereka bisa memilih untuk tetap merasa sengsara ataupun menyinari hidupnya sendiri dengan sesuatu yang positif. Maka dari itu, mereka memilih pilihan kedua, mereka sadar sepenuhnya bahwa mereka mampu menyingkirkan ilusi kesengsaraan, selama mereka memiliki tekad yang kuat.

Pernahkah kau berpikir bahwa kemampuan berilusi dan menciptakan ini pun dapat digunakan untuk mengusir kesengsaraan, sama seperti yang telah dilakukan oleh bocah jalanan ataupun korban bencana alam tadi? Kita mendapatkan karunia untuk dapat menentukan nasib dan menciptakan suatu ilusi yang positif. Ibaratkan hal ini dengan menonton film horror. Pernahkah anda merasa takut ketika sedang menonton film horror? Apa yang anda tonton itu hanya peranan belaka, ilusi yang diciptakan untuk mengisahkan film itu. Dan rasa takut itu muncul karena kita terhanyutkan oleh film itu, kita merasa sebagai suatu bagian dari film itu; seorang saksi dari apa yang terjadi disana. Namun, pernahkah anda berpikir bahwa anda bisa memilih untuk terus terhanyutkan dalam ketakutan itu atau mengganti film horror tadi dengan film lain? Nah, tentu saja skenario dalam DVD film horror itu tidak akan berubah, tapi anda bisa memilih untuk melihat skenario dalam DVD lain dan menikmatinya. Film horror disini saya ibaratkan sebagai tragedi ataupun kekelaman dunia yang sering kita saksikan saat ini, dan film lain itu saya ibaratkan sebagai sisi positif yang dapat kita temukan di hidup. Sesungguhnya, kita sendirilah yang menentukan indah atau tidaknya hidup. Jika kita memilih untuk terus dihanyutkan oleh kekelaman dunia, maka kita akan terus dilanda ilusi kesengsaraan itu. Jika kita memilih untuk beralih pandangan dan mengagumi sebuah pohon di padang gurun yang kering dan hampa, maka kita tentu akan merasa bahwa hidup adalah anugerah.

Sekian dari pesan yang saya terima pada hari ini. Namaste!~

I WAS...

Annoying. Super rebel. Labile. Confused. Frustrated. Angry. Fearful. Sad. Lonely. If I look back and see how I behave back then, I feel like seeing a stranger. Well it doesn't mean that I hate myself, I was just lost from this life path and had nowhere to go. I was isolated from others. I keep the anger by myself before eventually 'splashing' it to the ones who supposed to be innocent. I have no desire to live, it seemed that I   was a living dead. I wasn't able to be happy. Come to think of it, my past is pretty much sad and maybe I felt that way because I regret my past too much.

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Yet I am now glad that I can put the words 'I was', because I have no excuse to be angry for now. I found my life path once again, walking on it with awareness and joy. Even if I'm still annoying or angry sometimes, I am grateful that I am able to heal myself from them :) Perhaps the past was just an experience for me to develop my emphatic sense and to understand the desperate ones, and to be able to give them a helping hand.

The past me is a character that gives me this passion to help people anyway I can. Every time I saw lonely people, I remembered myself back then and so I understand how this person feels.

No matter how horrible I was, there's always a positive lesson I can receive so I don't have to regret. By experiencing loneliness and agony, I become empathic with others. By finding the solution trough it right now, I can help others to stand up as well :) And by doing this I become happier than ever! <3

YOU can be a true motivator either, the one that supports people, the one that raise people up from the pit of loneliness and agony. Just remember that there's nothing to be afraid of because what we fear is only a distraction and illusions. We breath this life together, forever!

Namaste~