KRISTA, THE LOST DIAMOND

I'm going to tell you a story about an old friend of mine that I haven't see or hear in years. Her name, in which beautifully written in heart forever, is Krista. I may have wrote about her before in here, but since I've wrote about her many times I can hardly remember.

I remember those innocent Kindergarten days when kids in the class hardly accept me. I only have few close friends, and the only one that I truly adore is Krista.

Why her? What so special about Krista? Well, I was very impatient and sometimes, sad. I hardly remember my behavior back then, but I remember that some kids were getting away from me. Or maybe I was the one who isolated myself from the society. But anyways, she came, sitting beside me with a sincere smile and pure and joyful laughter. I was really happy to know that she was also my neighbor!

I remember when we were having a coloring session. I truly love this activity and very good at it. Unfortunately, everyone had finished their work, and I was the only one who haven't done it yet. I was panicking because I don't like being the last one who finished this work. Krista was about to gave her work until she noticed that my work would be very messy if I panic for being the last one. So she sat down again and wait for me. "Let's give our work together!" She said.

We would play along together all day long, either in my house or hers. I remember that she would carry all of her toys and let me play with each of them, as long as we play the game together. I remember when we met at the shopping centre and bought the same flute lollipops. They all seemed simple and innocently childish, but me and Krista understand the meaning behind them. We understand that we have each other, we laugh and we breath this life together.

Unfortunately, something sad and unexpected happened in her family and she had to move away. After the farewell, I asked my mom about her every month and ever year, until now. I miss her so much that I still remember her favorite gowns and hairstyle. I regret that we didn't have any photos together and I've lost contact with her. I searched for her names everywhere; either in facebook, twitter, and even google. But there's no sign about her. I can't stop wondering about her and I'm still looking forward to meet her someday. But I wonder if she remembers me...

Here's my drawing as a tribute for Krista. I hope that we'll meet again someday.

THE BIG SECRET FOR THE LONELY ONES

Feeling lonely? lost? abandoned? Stuck? Isolated? Don't worry. I felt this way before either. I felt this way for months because I kinda feel like people just don't accept me for being myself and people don't understand me. They ignored me so I feel like playing with myself everyday.

But now, I'm thrilled, thrilled with passion to live this life, thrilled with gratefulness and joy, thrilled with laughter! It feels amazing! It feels amazing to live! It feels amazing to be myself! It feels amazing to be content! It feels amazing to know the big secret behind all of these :)

I want to share this secret, the secret that all of us should already know. The forgotten secret. A very simple yet powerful secret. Everyone deserves to know this secret. In fact, it shouldn't be a secret at all :)

"YOU ARE ME, I AM YOU, WE ARE ONE, WE ARE ALL A PART OF GOD."

The physical body may separated from one and another, yet a soul owns connection to another. All of us own an immortal soul. Our souls were created from the same exclusive material, a very special material and the most precious one. It is indeed, the light of love! Each of us came here to help each other. Without you, I why should I be here on my own? :)

Namaste! <3

SELF-CLEANSING PART 6 (POSITIVE MIND-SET)

It's pretty simple so I'm not going to give a long explanation about this. Avoid those anxiety and worries. Think positive instead. Our mind is very powerful. Think about this, when you feel afraid that you will not gonna make it in a project, then you WILL fail. When you feel that you have the potential to do the project and finish it, so shall it be done.

If God creates us according to what He is, we have the potential to 'create' because he IS the creator. We have the potential to make a reality from our minds. What I mean is, our faith depends on our mindset. You get the idea.

So I try to think positive about my future and the present itself. I used to think that I'm not gonna fit in very well in this new environment. So yeah, now I tried to change my mind set. And everything turns up fine ever since. I feel like I could get along with others pretty well, and it's not as hard as I think it will be.

That's all for now. Namaste!~ :)

SELF-CLEANSING PART 5 (MEDITATION)

This is the 5th part of my self-cleansing program. As for today, I've done a short meditation (maybe I'll resume it before going to bed since it is usually the best time for me to reach my alpha state) with an aromatherapy and a special power stone chained in a bracelet I bought lately.

Meditation is, indeed, an activity in which we activate our consciousness to be able to 'see' something, or simply relaxing our mind, body, and spirit. It's pretty simple; we just have to feel as relax as possible, control our breath, and close our eyes while sitting down in a proper position. Maybe, as well as I am, aromatherapy or power stone (crystal, quartz, etc, depends on what you're going to do in your meditation) will help you feel more relax and concentrate. In a meditation, you would feel like you're floating or 'out-of-your-body', don't be afraid because fear will block your mind and consciousness. Focus on your goals, your true self, what you are going to do in life. Or you can focus on something you've been wondering about for long, such as your past life, guardians, or just simply clean your chakras and aura. When you still have no idea of what you want to share to the world, or what you're going to be, ask your inner self about it, and let the intuition guides you to the answer. Believe in every 'sign' or 'information' you'll see. Meanwhile, if you already own the dream to become something, tell yourself that you're going to work hard, and you'll become what you want. Picture yourself doing what you want while you speak to yourself about what you'll become. Remember to not overuse your energy while meditating, otherwise you'll get tired afterward. When you overuse your energy, you'll feel a headache or something spinning too strong between your eyes (the ajna chakra). Calm down and chill. The point of doing meditation for self-cleansing is to fulfill your questions and the mysteries of you, so you are no longer lost in confusion. If there's many thing you want to focus on during meditation, focus on them one-by-one. When you already find the answer of one thing, focus on the next one, and so on. If you don't feel anything, maybe you have to practice your intuitions and develop your energy by practicing focusing method.

As for me, I ask my guardians and God to give my family some fortunate (since we're currently facing a financial problem) because my parents have worked so hard and they deserve something better. I also pictured safety for my hometown (since it is now in danger), put all my worries about the future and pictured myself becoming what I want, while promising that I will work hard for it. Well I'm not finish with the meditation yet. There's a lot of thing to think about in meditation. And I was not literally concentrating due to anxiety and guilt because of something. So I haven't done the effective meditation.

Notes from me:
If you're doing meditation to clean your loneliness and the feeling of being abandoned (I felt this way few months ago so I totally understand), perhaps Gayatri mantra will help you. Here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d63COahIpVM
Try to understand the meaning, the hidden message inside this beautiful mantra. Speak it with your heart...

Namaste.~

SELF-CLEANSING PART 4 ("GIVING IS BETTER THAN RECEIVING")

This is the 4th part of my self-cleansing program. Well, actually I've done this part yesterday and few days ago before the idea of creating this program popped inside my head. This time, I'm going to discuss about the power of (unconditional) giving.

Giving with a pure heart symbolize our true unconditional love. Giving is a sign that we care. We always have something to give. We could always give anything that others might need. Take a look at your smile! It is something very simple indeed, yet it is precious for others. It is free, we don't need to cost anything for it. Take a look at those forgitten books! Instead of throwing them away, why don't we donate them to someone else, making them become useful once again. This is also simple and many people have done this, but there is a wonderful and precious effect to the receiver that we might don't know.

Do you remember when you got what you want at your birthday, or christmas? I remember a few months ago, when I dreamt of having an upright piano. And how happy I was when I finally got it and I'm finally able to play it anytime I wanted to. Yet, my parents are happier because they are able to give it for me. And this is what we're going to feel as we give unconditionally.

Let's give, and develop our unconditional love! Namaste!~

SELF-CLEANSING PART 3 (BE GRATEFUL)

It's now the 3th day of my self-cleansing program. What I've done in today's self-cleansing is be grateful to whatever happened or whatever I received, no matter how rough or how simple it is. This is something simple, but there is a big gift behind it.

Every single thing, no matter how rough it is, is not a coincidence, yet if we open our eyes and think positively, it is a gift of life. Take a look at your meals, your clothes, your belongings. You received and own them for reasons. Those things are there for you to fulfill your needs. Take a look at the people of your life. Think about how wonderful they are. They colored your life. They come to you for this purpose, which is the same purpose of why you become a part of their life. Take a look at the horizons, the grass, the flowers. What would life in the earth be without them?

I started my day by thanking God (note: to avoid another misunderstanding, let me explain this first. I'm not religious as I told you before but this doesn't mean that I hate religions, beliefs, and more importantly, God. I love and I believe in God yet I no longer use particular religious tradition) for the brand new day. I opened my room's window and take a look at the view for a while. I stood there for a while and enjoy every single thing I saw. Before I had breakfast, I think about how wonderful my breakfast is (even if it's just a few small home-made Dutch doughnuts) and thank God again for the meal. To think how pity it is if I cannot share such joy from this wonderful meal while everyone deserves joy, I open my backyard door and let my furry friend, Snowy, in. She came in with her grumbling stomach, starring at my breakfast plate. I gave her some bites of the doughnut for snack :3 Then I came to my other dog, Robin, and gave him a hug (he, as always, ate too much yesterday so I didn't gave him anything :P) while giving my turtle his favorite turtle food.

I broadcast message (almost) everyone with this message:


"I am grateful to have you as a part of my wonderful life ({}) blessings!~"

And directly felt the power of unconditional love fulfilling my spirit. Well, there's a lot of thing I did for today's self-cleansing and those were only a few part of it, but the whole point is I just simple felt grateful for what I see, hear, and what I have.

So that broadcast message I typed above is also for YOU! <3 I need you, we need each other. You are a part of my life :) Namaste~

THE SELF-CLEANSING PROGRAM (PART 2: FORGIVING)

I haven't acomplished today's self-cleansing activity since I found some distractions today. I feel like people, some of them used to be my close friends, are ignoring me and mad at me without any explanations. So yeah, I'm pretty much upset and angry right now. And this is the big challenge for today's self cleansing.

Yesterday I asked some people to forgive me for my mistakes. This time, I am the one who has to forgive people for their mistakes.

As we forgive, we take control of our self-ego. We become powerful enough to rule our hearts and minds, and to get rid off those hidden grudge or hate we may keep deep inside our hearts. I myself, admit that I still hate some people even if I did not show it. By letting go our ego, we become big enough to care about others, and the love for ourselves grow bigger and bigger. When we forgive, even when the person did not managed to say sorry, it means that we love ourselves and we do not want to keep those hate and grudge that are bothering us.

forgiving is not always easy, I know. This theory happens to me today. I have to let my ego go. I can't let my ego contol myself and drive me nuts every single day! But yeah, sometimes ego wins. Sometimes we're being too selfish that we would rather keep our ego than letting it go and feel the positive vibes filtering our soul.

I am still facing this challenge yet I know that I can do it and, as well as you guys, I will gain unbelievable energy entering my mind, heart, and soul. Namaste~